Lets the tiredness continue...

ok i got back hm abt 715pm and ate my dinner... lay on bed while daydreamin til now... n now its bloggin time bfr i hav to get it down back to doin my assignments, reports, project and others...

Im havin a cravin for ice-cream... luckily bought a tub oredi... gona eat it all by big'o'self...

Mayb its the oni way to keep myself happy n self eluding...

Like wat the headin said, the tiredness will continue til the exams ar over... as most of u all noe... im a slacker... but i do try my best wen the time calls for it k...

soo since the time is nearli here, tis sem is alot diff coz the modules ar super hard, well compared to nex sem tis sem is abit easier k... well gotta chiong all of it since im jus plain all slackerz n i realli am behind the class... haiz...

tts all for me for now... JIA YOU!!! GO GO GO!!!

Is it me or Is it jus me?

i tink its jus me... Im subconsciously denying n stayin away frm my grp members... its sumting that i wish i cld do sumting abt but i dun tink im able to anytime soon...

Coz well, it seems that if i were to join them, ill totali feel akward like TOTALLY!!! coz the vibes they giv and the way they do tings aint my liking.. im not tryin to b rude or anything kkz... its jus tt i cant work in such an environment... y u ask?

well ther ar sumtings that prevent me frm concentrating wen im wif them... mayb coz of the grp of frens i hang out n the way we tink ar totali diff ba

it seems that they ar nearli done wif the excel whereas im like still stuck @ 25-35% production for the project doin it by myself...

My frens hav oredi called me weird as they stated that i mdoin it myself while my grp members ar oso doin it...

Ther ar tings that ive experience in life that others maynot ba... Those things made me hu i am n i learn frm them... Thus my actions ar so due to those experiences n things...

Am i to force myself in such a state wher my mood ar totali swingin uncontrollably unstable...
Its like adding more fuel to the flame thats oredi big...!!!
Thus its like total chaos within my own state of being!!!

Haiz... i jus wish i cld jus get it done n over wif... Pls sumone kill me n resurrect me another time... like aftr the exams...

In sch chiongin...

yupz... im in sch rite now chiongin my SemPro project which cldnt get tt much help frm others coz its either ther ar not arnd n well they ar busy...

tryin my best to remember n put it down on my excel sheet wat i saw on elvi's one... but oni cld remember @ least half of the 1st page oni... well i oni did hav the chance to look @ its 1st page...

I cld actualli go home rite now make it frm 11am onwards coz i dun hav any other lessons unlike my frens... since they're arnd might as well stick around as much as possible even though they may not b able to help me tt much...

well gotta go back to doin SemPro

SemPro Probs?!?!?!?!

it seems that sempro is realli givin me alot of probs... coz i realli dunnoe how to do it sia...!!!
i hope tmr i can figure out how to strt properly... todae i can oni configure wat i can on the excel spreadsheet makin @ least 60-65% of the whole spreadsheet automated wen the values changes...

I confirmed wif sum others that the report is dued on tue... That means i gotta finish the report plus the claculations by tmr nite... That aint alot of time... PIC's log bk is still yet to b touched... PIC report jus lef to b printed out again... Finished studyin CA but im sure ill forget most of it soon enuff if i dun recap everyday...

Gotta plan it out realli quick... MAJOR BRAINSTORMING ahead!!!

Hope tmr durin sch hours ill chiong wif elvi,ta-jie n weide's grp coz they noe more than me bah... their gpa all above 3.5 i tink... well better than a 2.19 gpa scoring guy like me rite?

Well i tink i better strt doin some PIC log bk entry...

Gona chiong all the way!!! My mood is totali oscillating like crazy!!!

It seems that the days hav oredi cut short & the exam wk is comin like nex wk onwards... I feel the pressure as ive been slackin most of the time... My assignments, reports and also project is comin to its due date and ive not even completed half of each criteria per task...

I plan to chiong all the way for my Sempro report cum project aftr i get back frm lunch outside... Wen tt'll b? Aftr bloggin n lunch bah...

I aint complainin abt tis issue: (Am i doin the Sempro myself?)
It seems im doin it alone for the timebeing coz my grp members hav yet to tell me any instructions or contacted me... I noe i shld ask them abt it even if they nvr did contact me abt it...(shld b takin initiative) But im busy myself too... N my hp is like not wif me... Huever contacts me frm sat til todae aint gona get thru n i wunt noe coz my hp aint wif me... AKA its not functionin... n i dun seem to b able to come online most of the time... Tmr lessons strt @ 9am soo tt means i can slp later than usual abit lah tonite...

N thers no AC lessons @ 3pm soo i tt means i got more time aftr sch to chiong my Sempro... the qn tt i hav is wether Sempro report hav to b dued by end of nex wk or tue's sempro period?

Tinkin too much has caused me to hav migraine again... anywayz i haven been able to sleep well... n its makin me cranky all over sia... MY body ACHES!!!


Ystrday i didnt had the mood to go to wrk... Cldnt bother coz totali not feelin well wif a migraine... Didnt go to doc... aint hav the cash lah... im a poor soul kkz... tryin to keep my mood swings frm oscillating too much... Appetite has increased 3x I cld say okiez mayb abt 2.5X...
i hav cravings to eat a tub of icecream but since im short of cash i jus cant go arnd buyin a tub n eat the whole thing down... i oni hav 10bucks for the entire week lef... omg!!! feel like cryin!!!

Haiz, ystrday my mood was totali swinging uncontrolably unstable...
Am i gona go crazy? i ask myself tt every hour lolz...
Mayb?

Tryin my best to stay on the track to complete my sch stuff ya... All the best to me..

JIA YOU!!!

Procrastinating myself?

My apologies for not bloggin for quite a while... alot of things have been happenin negatively towards my life ALOT! I noe i can neither blame on sumone nor on sumtings thus all i can say is tt its jus alot of mishaps n misfortunes for me tis wk.

I learned a new wrd frm my fren ystrdynite... the word is procrastinating if im not mistaken... it seems tt the meanin is rottin oneself away...

Well i hav to agree to tt term coz i am rottin myself away...
The days to the exam wk is like super duperly short...
The exam wk starts like nex wk and all i can say is tt im still not motivated as well as i want to b
With production speed and drive @ such a low gear... My workload seems like forever alot n not movin... Hope todae wld b a better day coz i realli gotta strt doin the work tt i hav coz most of them ar due super soon...

It seems like i hav to skip another class on SUN... coz i realli gotta CHIONG on my weekends to finish up wat i need to do... Too bad my sat aftrn is occupied by my part-time... Its not my caterin but my PH job...

I dunnoe how its been down ther... All i can say is tt i dun bother as sch n academics stuff comes 1st n tt i realli gotta try sumways to make myself focus on wat i need to do n if possible keep it tt way...

All that im doin now is more towards rottin away. My projects have yet to even form any shape... its still in a draft system n i dun wana noe wat'll happen to it if i realli dun move my butt...

Is procrastinating myself all i can do for now???

Tryin to get motivated...

it seems the days til exam mth is endin nex wk...
yet it seems like im soo unmotivated tt since ystrdy, i came back home n totali hit the hay...

my body n mind feels soo damn tired lately... is it because of my mood swings or other things such as sch stuffs n the time frame crisis? OR all of the above plus others...?

todae aftr sch, had to reach home quickly to eat lunch, then go discharge my dad frm hospital.
Reached home n totali hit the hay again for which woke up n ate dinner n now bloggin aftr some chattin wif my sec sch fren. it feels great to tok to them... catchin up on the lost times i guess..

my mood todae is the sian type... felt better aftr wakin up but feel iritated by my bro... soo disturbing... now i noe y i like to slp aftr i come back frm sch... to avoid contact wif him... mayb ba?

well exams ar arnd the corner yet i still got alot of assignments, reports, n my major sem pro with its project based report, reflection, presentations n alot of excel workings to do for the report n lets sum it all is tt excel is covering mainly most of the entire proj...

haiz... alot of wrk yet soo little time...
plan to get the overview n some plannin down on pencil n paper aka draft by tonite...
tmr got caterin in the evenin n oso on sun morn til abt 6pm.

tmr is A-chem research n oso Excel for SemPro... bfr caterin job tt is... 5/hr not bad rite? meanin 2days im earnin abt 50buck? well better than my PH job i guess 4/hr yet more strainious...

but caterin job oso strainious but more towards the legs...
i mean i stand @ PH alot soo kinda used to it but its still a pain bah... erm i tink more pain to the legs for caterin job coz hav to walk to the kitchen is like further away than the event hall soo quite a longer walk than PH coz im in the kitchen n even if i run oso cant run long distance...

well tts all frm me todae... Gotta keep tellin myself JIA YOU to get motivated...

PS: JIA YOU !!! to my frens oso...

A Week that's aint a good one nor bad...

It seems that many not good things ar happenin in my life tis wk.

MON- i was sick since fri with a super headache. went 2 doc to check it out on mon. Migraine totali. Bought the super EX medicine n some other. Now feelin better. Heachaches are nearli all gone.

TUE- @ abt 3am, my dad was sent to the Changi Hospital frm wrk coz of a sickness. Admitted to the hospital. Had a totali boring day in sch n hospital.

WED- Now in sch, didnt noe that ther was no A-Chem Lecture. Ms Diong came to find Elvi-jie 2 change the lab timetable coz of clash wif the Common Test Timetable... I assume todae will oso b a dull day for me coz im still feelin unwell. N i dun hav the energy in me to do much of anything todae...

Well its neither a good nor a bad week. Its jus a SIANZ week to me... My life is jus detiorating as the days countdown to the exams...

This week is exactly 2mths away frm my bdae... Is that the cause of my MOOD SWINGS...???

I feel veri negative abt myself with each passing day. Dunnoe y but its like tt... The feelings ar swingin but most of them ar negative... The only time wen i feel positive is wen i jus lay on the bed n look up upon my bed's ceiling...

Is that the oni thing tt can make me feel better? Mayb i shld jus laz the day away but the time n the urgency abt the exams aint lettin me to do so. Realli gotta plan all tis out soon... If not im in deep waters that ar freezin cold that could freeze me in it n it will lead to more complications for me in my miserable lost life...

Y am i sayin soo much negative things abt myself? well im feelin disgusted wif myself... I jus wish my happy-go-lucky, positive, crazily n looney, idiotic me wld jus return ASAP... I miss myself... sarcasm n irony haiz...

Im not in gd health...

Gd mornin ppl, it seems its not a great mornin for me aftr all...
My heachache tt i had since fri has yet to fade away...
Soo i tink its best to check it out before it gets worse since the exams n presentations are jus around the corner...So ill b headin for the doc once it opens...

My CT will strt in Week 16 aint tt like 2 more wks... With my elective module up front on wed...

Am i jus too overworked, overstressed or jus plain worried abt things too much? or all of them?
Its great to hear most of my frens ar copin well, im happy for them yet im abit disgusted @ myself...

Y am i feelin so? mayb its tt time of year wen my feelings oppose wat i wan them? mayb coz its 2mths bfr my bdae tis wk...
Tokin abt bdae, tis yr's falls on the fastin mth soo i plan to celebrate it wif frens n members in advance... but its difficult to plan it out since Exams ar jus bfr tt... Haiz, its either ther will b or not... it totali depends on the time i hav sia...

Well im goin to bed for another hour bfr i head out to the doc's...

APOLOGIES YET AGAIN!!!

okok im now uploadin the pics... kinda late make it super late...
soo for tt i apologise to those hu wans the pics frm me...

It has been jus a super-damn forsaken 3days worth of SUAY-NESS!!! frm thu til sat...

ill post abt it later lah... now need to upload abt alot of pics...

LATERZ =P

Thu's Series of Unfortunate Events... n Apologies

It seem that thu is an unfortunate day full of unfortunate events for me n my frens... Sum really had a bad experiencing day wif soo many SUAY things happenin to them...

For me, i too had a few unfortunate events but not to such a degree as my frens... mayb one lah...

In the mornin, i was suppose to go n buy sweets @ 7-11 but unconsciously i walked pass 2 7-11 n totali frgt to stop til i reached CHEERS. No choice soo i jus went in to get sum sweets...
I went in, grabbed some candy n paid... I didnt notice that those candies tt i bought had GELATIN in it!!! OMG!!! wen i reached sch, i was sharing wif my frens, n i too was chewing onto it, alot of it... OMG!!! i didnt notice it til end of lesson wen i was like swearing n cursing myself...
I gav up the candies totali to my frens beside me...

I dare not eat candies til end of the wk lah...

Aftr sch, [NOTE: This is not directed to anione or anything, if u feel ur the reason y i felt tt way then dun! it was jus a feelin @ tt moment!] in the train, everione was on their way to sumwher no? while i was standing there, ppl were tokin near to me. They were tokin abt academic stuffs n how 'sum ppl' are doin... wether they were doing poorly or not n tt they expect some of them to do otherwise...

I mean to me as long it doesnt hav my name in the conversation or directed to me i dun mind a single bit but its a topic tt i dun like to hear coz im self aware @ this point of time aftr the exams about my status...
Its the satus about my studies. academics n results n how ppl c myself doing... I HATE TO B RATED although tt conversation was not directed to me but indirectly it was affecting me...

Dun sum of u feel tt way sumtimes? I was pissed off n wen the train stopped @ Yishun which is my stop, i totali rushed out of the train leaving my frens n down the escalator, out the station n totali zoomed straight to the interchnge to hop on my bus n home sweet home.

My mum noticed i was in a foul mood wen she met me @ the lift lobby n greeted me, i was jus too pissed to open my mouth, afraid tt vulgarities might fly out... Reached home, ate n relaz to rid off tt negative foul feelin... My dad exchange his nokia 6280 wif me as he was using the PDA which was meant for me but i dun wan it coz it was abit sucky to me... soo i rather get the NOKIA...

I was feelin soo damn tired n negative tt i chose to slp tt whole events in my head... I thought i cld wake up @ abt 10pm to do sum revision, blog n upload the pics but i cldnt wake up til tis mornin... Notice tt Jun Yi lef a msg for me on msn... frgt tt i lef it ther as away...

Soo here i am to apologize to those hu was waitin for the uploads of pics... i sure will msg or msn u all or u can check my blog pics' links for the pics n dl them...

thers alot of pics to upload for me coz my sec sch frens oso wan the sec sch pics tt i hav n i hav to upload all of the poly pics i hav since...

Tts alot of uploading to do but ill do tt onli aftr my movie Transformers ends @ GV YISHUN later tonite... OOooOO i frgt i hav to wrk full shift tmr... soo gotta slp earli later.. haiz... HOPE i can stay up longer to finish all of the wrk i planned for todae..

LATERZ =P

SCL DInner Meet On Wed...

The dinner meet was full of fun however the 1st part wasnt... ahahaha...

For me, i ended sch @ 3pm, rushed home to change n u noe drop the load of sch materials frm my shoulders...
Had to meet up wif Xiaobin N Suan @ AMK MRT station
Xiaobin was late as usual
Took the train together to Dhoby Ghaut n took NEL to Clarke Quay station.
Waited for the rest ther...
Got lost @ Clarke Quay lookin 4 the restaurant... Took a long LOST walk @ Clarke Quay the main area.
Called for directions frm the restaurant but cldnt understand most of wat they were tryin to say due to their strong Indian Punching Accent.
OK.. finalli reached the place abt erm 645-7pm? Lucky we got ther earli coz by the time we all sat down n strtin to eat, the crowd started to come in...

The food was nice n soo is the price... $16 per head + gst oredi n its buffet style...
I ate onli 1 serving... most of the other guys went for another serving or more... for me i gulped myself down wif soo many glasses of water that i lost count...

The desserts were damn sweet! lucki im quite the sweet tooth but it was jus plain too sweet... i oni cld eat 5 of those little ball thingys before it killed me... KILLER SWEET HONEYED BALS...ahaha hey dun tink perv khor... its food kkz...

Took snaps of pics n tok n chatted makin the whole place noisy... although most of the noise not frm us tt much.
Aftrwards, paid the bill n went to wher? 'Esplanade?'
we actualli went to walk @ clarke quay again before deciding wher to go... ahaha... walked thru the water fountain area... took a pic in the middle n walked off... ahahaha...

Meena-chan was scared kena sprayed by the water as sum of it like shoots up unknowingly soo luckily no shooting up of any @ tt time...
The night scenery was nice, actualli i went ther like in April i tink... soo it was a great refreshing scenery lah

Ok then we went to walk to esplanade frm ther but ended u sittin @ the Supreme Court stairs ther n chatted like crazy.... talked n crapped abt sch, reports n many more things although soo many times i didnt want to hear abt sch tt day but the funnu thing was the prank call to Meena-chan's bro, Sairam... LOL

FUNNY!!!

oh ya, while sittin ther, we waved @ tourists' bus n some waved back... Police car passed by slowly n looked @ us but they cant do anything ba coz hu would illegal gather @ the supreme court wher its of the HIGHEST LAW!!! ahahaha funny sia... okok wen time to go back, i planned to hail a cab coz oredi reaching my so called curfew time limit... wah soo long wait sia...

i was wif suan n xiaobin... waited soo long which by the time most of them reached home oredi.... had no choice but to call a cab... finalli got one of course booked mah... then home sweet home without standing or walkin tt much hehez...

Sent xiaomei, then me n then suan is last...

Reached home abt 12am around ther... my dad was watchin blade trinity the endin part... haiz i oso watched till 1230am wen i remembered abt the research part... (SORI WEIDE!!!) but i was soo damn tired n my batt died oredi... i jus had no mood of aniting n went straight to bed,,,

Ill post another later wif sum pics n the pics to my photobucket tonite... hu ever wans the pics pls dl them kkz.. oh ya th pics of the SCL CLUB activities tt i hav ill try by sun to upload all of them...

Laterz

Upcomin Dinner Meet... N Others...

I cant wait for the Dinner Meet, now havin break 4 3h n i wunt b eating lunch coz need room for the fd for the Dinner Meet later... Cant wait sia!!! Later tonite ill post wat happen ther...

Sori didnt post ystrdy... was damn tired aftr wrk lah... soo here i am jus gona tell ya tt i didnt stay awake all the way durin my PIC report Rushin Mad... i slpt @ abt 3am then woke up again @ abt 530am to continue...

I tell u we kena SUAY-ED!!! coz my lecturer said he gona check it tt day n lucki didnt hav to hand it up coz everione did most of the reports all wrong... he veri specific type.. thk god lah... haiz soo gotta redo the whole report by my lonesome-self on SUN lor...

ok @ least my partner did some of it but like i still hav to redo it like the whole myself... dun take it as if im complainin kk... jus tryin to state i realli got alot of wrk cut out for me...

Well once a while the need to rush things is quite gd... FOR ME TT IS!!!
Oh ya... i cldn't strt on my Mths Assignment n i told 'her' (my mths lect) tt ill hand it up on fri by no choice bah... she said she'll minus the marks...

well wat to do bah.. late assignments n reports sure kena deduct mrks mah... wat to do wat to do? jus accept lor... @ least it will b marked n i still get my marks n stuff soo its not tt bad a deal... BTW: i passed my mths wif a C... 1st time sia... ahahaha...

Hav to take it as positive of everything as much as possible as its now the time wher the negative emotions n feelings are gonna pour out due to the ever inclining stress from the modules n lecturers n peers as the EXAMS are drawing nearer as i blog tis n gotta rush for time to complete n revise my studies...

Soo todae will b the last day i enjoy myself wif frens to de-stress before the road to ever constant struggle n hardship til aftr the exams strt...

My results... Tasks @ hand

Finalli got most of my results back, i soo far passed 2 out of my 6 modules which are RS n BPA [failed], AC n PIC got a C, so wats lef? Mths n CostAccounting ba. I tink tis 2 unknowns ones i shld pass de...

I cant afford to fail animore haiz... gotta buck up like crazy, ystrdy cldnt finish my PIC, damn hard, oni cld complete 90% of my draft[on pencil n ppr] for expt2 section, came back hm abt 7pm aftr walkin aimlessly in Yishun aftr sch... needed the fresh evenin air... to clear the mind u noe...

okok i tink ill go n finish tis post, dinner than strt on it ya?
So wat tasks do i hav to complete todae? its quite alot i guess since i totali frgt abt my mths assignment til jus now wen i opened my file n i saw 'IT!!!'

but PIC comes 1st soo like PIC gotta finish it diedie... then gotta do my printout of SemPro, n do the stepping, aftr tt wld b mths assignment... haiz... i dun tink it cld b done by 12mn rite? i mean hey its quite alot of wrk especially for tis PIC, i tink ill strt @ 830pm aftr dinner...

Lets plan it out ya?
830 - PIC expt 2 n others since raviyn doin expt 1
1am - Compile n Edit
2am - Printout Report, n SP graph
330am - Mths Assignment
6am - Get ready for sch

wah i tink if i delay abit here n ther i tink its wunt change much of the timing since i gotta b in sch for 8am classes...
HAIZ!!!

well gotta sacrifice sum slp to get the job done no? Lets Do It YEAH!!!

a nice coolin sunday...[note: long post, stretch frm sat to sun]

Okay, todae woke up @ abt erm 1030am i tink, then i went to do some surfing. Im suppose to feel more tired than usual todae coz i wrked my butt of ystrday for a total of 12hours @ wrk without a proper break.

I went to the 7-11 @ my place ther n got some energy drink n oso a light snack, wen i reached home i heated the fd n went to my room to munch on it while i go n read some mail...
while readin n munchin, sarah pm my msn 2 ask for the photos tt i took wif them on thu, i redirected her to my photobucket to dl the pics...

ok done wif munchin but not feelin slpy, watched some anime tts i jus finished 'dl', naruto wat else... ok nice but i wished ther was more action in the epi alwayz... finally @ abt 3am, i was able to fall asleep yeah...

oh ya, wen i was abt to leave for wrk on sat, ta-jie msged me... ill post it here then, on second thought, mayb not lah, the conversation jus plain damn too long... n veri difficult for me to type it all out here to refer to my hp's inbox n sent messages ok...
soo lets jus say she cares alot... how touching.. made a promise but i tink i can oni keep 80% of it coz my managers dun let me oni take the sat wrk time, need 2 commit 2 days @ least... haiz soo i took the tue since we end earli n wed is oso quite a short day...

Y not wed? coz im gona b active in the SCL CLUB soo i plan to make use of tt time for the CLUB bah...

NOTE 2 Ta-Jie: THKZ FOR THE SMSES YSTRDAY!!! REALLI MADE THE DAY OKOK MAYB MOST OF E DAY... coz my wrkplace was like hell aftr half the time spent ther... aka evening busy time... enuff abt wrk... givin me stress n stuff... im ok now...

2dae mornin went to ppls' blogs n i stubbled across Wei Suan's post, i agree wif him abt sum of the things he posted on his blog abt our sch n studies... but mayb he abit too much sayin abt the MOE... i dun wan trouble but i do understand tt we need to voice ourselves to a certain lvl...

i guess we all need a break, for me, i wan a enjoyable break to spend on tis comin wed wif my club frenz... to relieve the negative academic thoughts in my head since i failed most of my modules... interestingly i passed my PIC class test wif a C... not bad, i didnt study tt much, jus remembered n paid as much okok not tt much attention to his key points... im better @ theory i guess as long as its not confusing n complex to my standards...

Oh ya watched Princess mononoke n my super ex-girlfren... Princess mononoke was nice, i luv anime no matter wat lah... as long its not sucky can oredi... well for the other tittle, i jus dun get it tt much coz i was pre-occupied wif other matter tts y never did pay attention... okok i oni did get abt luv parts n stuff... but it didnt get my full interests n i rate it as per 'average?'

i may not b much of a movie critic but i luv watchin movies n those tt realli impress n reel me in ar the best... those get high ratings frm me... well diff ppl hav diff tastes n such, tts wat makes us all unique n diff bah... ahahaha... i tink Yamon still remembers abt the philosophy sayin i told her if she didnt frgt ahahaha...

Rite now, im doin my PIC, its damn hard n im havin such a BIG HEADACHE wif it... herm wen am i gona strt on BPA?? well lets jus get it done one by one, later its all a mess i guess...

Bloggin shall b delayed til sun...

sori peepz abt ystrday nt bloggin aftr sch, was jus plain damn slpy n tired.. Y? coz i was oredi damn slpy n tired wen i reached sch hehez.

Well i was oredi fallin asleep during my Reactor System Lab Briefing sia... btw no lab, jus a briefing n a summary type.... lucky i fell asleep @ the last moments bfr he ended in like wat? 1min... lolz

went home wif gang aftr tt... rented dvds for the day, THE COVENANT, MY SUPER EX-GIRLFRIEND n PRINCESS MONO...something... an anime movie...

reached hm for lunch n watched the covenant, its nice... my sis was in luv wif the male lead, quite handsome leh... ahahaha...
n aftr the movie ended, i totali went zzzZZZzzz... til abt 845am todae... wah tts alot of slpin time than normal for me... im feelin refreshed n tts a gd sign coz ill b wrkin frm 11am til 12mn todae... arnd ther or mayb til 1130pm, depends on how fast we close the kitchen rite? YEAH... OT OT... i luv my OT but too bad aint double pay plus OT...

well im off to watch tv for awhile bfr i gotta go to wrk... cya ppl...

oh ya abt todae n tmr stuff will b blogged tmr nite kkz... busy busy...

SIANZ... ROTTIN IN SCH FOR 2 Hours

wah i cant believe im rottin in sch again for another 2hours like tuesday bfr the nex lesson sia... actualli its a 3h break but since im attending my SP excel class tts y its now 2h...

i msged my manager tt im not comin for wrk todae oredi liao.. i tink thers jus too much sch wrk to finish up wif alot of reports n oso my revision which i realli gotta buck up like mad (refer to last post to c the argument wif Ta-Jie...)

i oredi feelin sleepy durin last hour for mths, n here i am outside the lab sittin n rottin here... can it actualli become any better? actualli it didnt, its the same lah i guess... wher i am rottin doesnt make much of a diff, i cant slp here nor anywhere else as i totali cant slp although i feelin damn sleepy...

well my mood todae is like 'pls sumone kill me'...
haiz abt the solution to the argument wif ta-jie ystrday i still hav no clue lah... til now tt is... hope it'll pop up soon... i jus cant take animore major headaches...
u wana noe y? its coz... ... ... NO MORE PANADOL!!!! out of stock sia... sobz T_T...

Sad case...

its a sad case sia... i found out wen i was on my way back frm sch wif simin-jie (ta-jie), jin dan, weide n oso sarah...

ta-jie so-called threatened n somehow scolded me abt my poor academic results...
i cant help it bah... i tried my best n u ppl shld noe me bah, i jus suck @ modules tt hav serious mths calculations, formulas n oso physics...

she said ' haiyo, y ur results soo bad, nvr study meh? wat u doing? wat u gona do abt it?'
i replied ' i do nothing ba, n i nvr do anyting soo im gona do nothing...'

she: 'u dun care abt losing us and all of ur class??!!!'
me: 'wat am i to do abt it? i care lor then wat u wan me b? a total hack-care is it? like tt rather b a lonesome person totali n avoid all contact rite?'

well i do regret veri much abt the argument but i cant do much abt it at the moment.. wat can i do i ask myself til now... but no solution pops into my head lah...

haiz i jus wished everione wld understand my position as well as my feelings n distress abt it...

ive tried to follow my dear ta-jie n gangs' advise abt quitin my job but it seems im in no position to do so even if i tried... its not abt the outlet not lettin me go okok mayb a part of it, they now then allowed but tt time realli cant allow me go since im valued like an asset coz short of staff like mad now like got alot, ill tok abt the new situation at my wrkplace another time lor...

well i jus cant quit, 1. finacial, 2. need to get more pre-occupied to more than jus academic, 3. experience gaining, 4. others n many more...

many asked me wats my status, yet i oni can answer them wif info tt is available to b distributed... coz i jus cant pour all of my personal details like tt meh? its confidential bah...

well i can oni say here tt im the type not to make ppl understand me too much coz i like to b mysterious and oso tt i dun wan them worry too much abt me. i prefer to worry abt others... the feelings wen ppl worry abt myself is kinda weird feeling tt its hard to xplain n it somehow brings pain to my heart n soul wen i noe they're worried...


haiz... i jus prefer to b more mindful of others than myself n i prefer they wld do the same, dun mind abt me too much, i can handle the pain n struggles tt goes on in my life...
i treat it as obstacles tt the almighty god has brought upon me as trials n tests in life...

soo im jus gonna end wif tis phylosophy sayin n oso a few wrds to ta-jie n gang...

how can a life b viewed as magnificent n beautiful? it is wen tt life has gone thru many trials n overcome them, oni then it wld evolve n emerge as a magnificent n beautiful one which overcomes n truimphs over others due to the amount of experience n difficulties it has gone thru...

im sorry to make u ppl wori abt me but i prefer u ppl jus stay ther by my side ok? but dun worri too much abt me... even if more difficulties lie ahead, ill always try my best n struggle thru it even if i were to fall back, ill always pick myself up kkz...

Im realli thkful n appreaciate everiones feelings...

SCL MAKAN outing/gathering

for those hu ar goin to the makan outing/gathering, pls confirm ur status if ur plannin or confirm oredi to join us...

The place n location n timing is not confirmed coz 'we' are still lookin for the restaurant which hav gd food n affordable prices plus gd service too lah if available...

Yamon asked me to msg u all whom i hav contacts coz we need to noe abt how many ppl ar goin soo we can book the place...

Hope to c most of u all ther coz i luv ur company kkz ppl...

ill b mass msgin u peeps aftrwards in like 2h since im busy wif my reports now kkz..

DAMN TIRED!!! CRISIS @ WRKPLACE!!!

haiz.. im jus soo damn tired... coz im slowly recoverin from the lag of slp n slpless nitez durin the CT wk n oso overwrkin my body, mind n soul...

im oso damn tired frm juggling everiting frm erm... nvm lets jus say everyting in my life rite now...

how i wish i could stop time for a moment like a few days mayb coz i wana slp n retink abt my plans... hav u peeps noe wat u wana b wen u grow up...? coz even though ur tt old oredi, ur choices are still available leh... im serious coz as long as u hav the drive u can still chng the course tt ur in n make it into the ones tt u hav always wanted...
CAUTION: not everything is made possible... but @ least tried rite...

For me, i noe tt my choices are limited rite now... its either i go into pharmaceutical or petrochem but ive always wanted to go into education... i wana help those studs tt went thru the same treatment as wen i was in sec sch... coz alot of ppl nowadays hav such a general opinion tt it hurts wen i tink abt how those ppl treat these type of studs...

wat type u ask? well its sumting tt u shld sit down n ponder urself abt...
well i tink tts enuff abt my arguments...

Abt my wrkplace arh? well thers 2 china ladies hu ar attached here i tink... well for me n my members workin in the kitchen, its hard to communicate wif them since their eng super duperly suck same as my mandarin however at least i can tok abit rite... but i understand more... haiz... y must wrk inside kitchen?

i wunder wats wrng wif my RM.. she wan all female crew i dun mind... im being the xtra one lah... haiz then y must pick them up haiz... she sotong lah... nex time wan do things do em which benefits the entire outlet lah... she teach em then i dun mind lah... my brain hurts more than normal everytime i hav to teach them coz its super hard to teach them wif tis barrier....

oh ya abt my RM doing sotong things.. she tok damn big abt havin 3 wash aunties but i find it quite useless sia... since they all tend to go back bfr the closing is finalized n done wif... haiz we still gotta do most of the job bah... n they're soo damn slow... i can do much better n damn faster!!!

haiyo... i can do multi taskin while doin wash sia... i can do aux orders then come back n finish up alot of things tt ar in the sink n go back to doin orders... super fast!!! pro rite.. alot of my members can oso do tt... we ar trained by ourselves to do tt... it super effiecient bah if u wana get the job done... actualli i wanted to clear it faster by helpin wif the wash but they said its their job n since they are paid oni to do tt im restricted frm helpin unless they're not ther lor...

HAIZ troubled!!!

SCL MAKAN OUTING!!!

hey, heard the news about the scl makan outing? its on wed the 11th liao... at an indian cuisine restaurant...

jus make sure ur free on tt day if u wana join in the makan festival...

i heard we're gona celebrate milan's belated bdae on tt day oso.
its in the evening ba... ill msg the ogls the details once i noe more abt it liao...

Y am i still awake? well i am coz of the long sleepin time i had in the morn til evenin... well im still awake n i dun feel slpy one bit soo here i am tellin u peeps as so...


I myself hav noting else to do since my brain jus froze moments ago as i cant do aniting much more on my PIC draft report as im stumped...
so here i am uploadin pics into my photobucket accnt to put on my blog n friendster... found my secret stash frm long ago hiding in one corner of my desktop's folders...

i thought i had many more but nope soo i guess i realli need to take more pics of myself n others... wif me in it bah... of course i cant upload all of them rite... ahahahaha

ill jus slowly upload them kkz...

Todae is a sickly day...

cant believe i had high-fever todae of all days wen i realli wana go to sch...

cldnt get up todae til soo late like 8pm.. didnt notice my batt died... stayed in bed the entire time slpin n resting.... major headaches n the heat...

woke up at 8pm arnd ther but still layed in bed til 930pm to eat some fever medicine...
my batt still flat... dunoe y i dun feel like chargin it...

y im like tis todae? the oni xplanation is due to slpless nites durin the CT n oso im damn beat out aftr my caterin job... hey add tis together n u get a collapsing me...

well i got to strt doin my PIC draft report soon... mayb somewher aftr midnite... thkz to overslpin im damn wide awake...

mayb not tt wide but jus awake til i cant yet go to slp... aka not slpy...

haiz... my head hurts like mad still... it feels soo damn heavy n also that pumping vessels feeling... realli irritating... makin me hard to tink n concentrate... haiz...

well i hope i can make it thru the nite n slp jus bfr sch strts... haiz... tmr is gona b a hectic day jugglin soo many tings aftr sch n wrk...

Premonition of a hectic wk...

Tis wk i guess tt i'll b super-duperly hecticly busy liao...
On mon, i hav to do my PIC draft report and oso of doing my Mths' e-quiz tts due by mon i tink...
Then theres SP to do... heard tt the qns for each grp is gona come out on tt day... haiz... troubled indeed...


Gotta buck up since the CT was sucky as usual.... xcept for my CA...
I always tell myself tt i went into the wrong course yet if it is my destiny n fate n i happen to go into it might as well struggle thru it to the end ritE?

haiz...

E oni ting i can do rite now is to strive towards wat i can do... n tts work harder n juggle as much as possible wif all the stuff i hav happenin in my life... like sch, academics, wrk, family n personal life....

i noe its abit too much n sure wld overstress myself but i gotta do it coz in aug ill hav to stop entertainin afew of these stuff however the main priority is tt of academics n sch... soo the rest hav to halt in aug coz tts wen the exams are around the corner n i realli mean around coz by the time u noe it, it'll b like tmr or something scary n horrying to describe the feelings in my head....


I NEED PANADOL XTRA!!!!

okok i noe it helps but not to eat it everyday... lucki i avoid it by eating the regular ones too... later immune to it, then more trouble for me...

lets plan it out ya; 2-9 July
mon - PIC DRAFT REPORT, MTHS E-QUIZ
tue - WRK, SP, PIC REPORT
wed - WRK, PIC REPORT, CA, BPA
thu - LAB REPORTS, AC, PIC & REPORT
fri - WRK, LAB REPORTS, PIC REPORT
sat - WRK, LAB REPORTS, PIC REPORT, TUTORIALS, REVISION
sun - ANDALUS, REPORTS, TUTORIALS, REVISION
mon - PIC REPORT, SP

well hope i can keep to the plan...

Exams are over yet the battle aint over...

Like my previous post, exams tis sem is hard n im thankful tt its over, however the battle tts jus over is jus put a small skirmish...

the real battle has yet to begun n over wif... coz the Semestral Exams are nearing at great speeds...
I feel that im in for a struggle n i aint gona like it one bit...

for the time being tis comin wk, i jus wana take my time to recover frm the lost of slp n the continuous headaches that i feel rite nw..
gotta complete report for PIC tis comin mon for the draft n ask abt it on tue, n tue mornin gona strt on mths' new topic, intergration which i dun understand one bit... haiz...


well soo many troubles in sch yet so is at wrk... i gotta go back to wrk to sustain me on the mth of Aug tt i aint gona wrk til the exams ar over... okok mayb wrk on sat oni but i tink tts all tt im gona b wrkin on...

many worries n many doubts... my brains a mess n here im slowy fixin them all out...