Sad case...

its a sad case sia... i found out wen i was on my way back frm sch wif simin-jie (ta-jie), jin dan, weide n oso sarah...

ta-jie so-called threatened n somehow scolded me abt my poor academic results...
i cant help it bah... i tried my best n u ppl shld noe me bah, i jus suck @ modules tt hav serious mths calculations, formulas n oso physics...

she said ' haiyo, y ur results soo bad, nvr study meh? wat u doing? wat u gona do abt it?'
i replied ' i do nothing ba, n i nvr do anyting soo im gona do nothing...'

she: 'u dun care abt losing us and all of ur class??!!!'
me: 'wat am i to do abt it? i care lor then wat u wan me b? a total hack-care is it? like tt rather b a lonesome person totali n avoid all contact rite?'

well i do regret veri much abt the argument but i cant do much abt it at the moment.. wat can i do i ask myself til now... but no solution pops into my head lah...

haiz i jus wished everione wld understand my position as well as my feelings n distress abt it...

ive tried to follow my dear ta-jie n gangs' advise abt quitin my job but it seems im in no position to do so even if i tried... its not abt the outlet not lettin me go okok mayb a part of it, they now then allowed but tt time realli cant allow me go since im valued like an asset coz short of staff like mad now like got alot, ill tok abt the new situation at my wrkplace another time lor...

well i jus cant quit, 1. finacial, 2. need to get more pre-occupied to more than jus academic, 3. experience gaining, 4. others n many more...

many asked me wats my status, yet i oni can answer them wif info tt is available to b distributed... coz i jus cant pour all of my personal details like tt meh? its confidential bah...

well i can oni say here tt im the type not to make ppl understand me too much coz i like to b mysterious and oso tt i dun wan them worry too much abt me. i prefer to worry abt others... the feelings wen ppl worry abt myself is kinda weird feeling tt its hard to xplain n it somehow brings pain to my heart n soul wen i noe they're worried...


haiz... i jus prefer to b more mindful of others than myself n i prefer they wld do the same, dun mind abt me too much, i can handle the pain n struggles tt goes on in my life...
i treat it as obstacles tt the almighty god has brought upon me as trials n tests in life...

soo im jus gonna end wif tis phylosophy sayin n oso a few wrds to ta-jie n gang...

how can a life b viewed as magnificent n beautiful? it is wen tt life has gone thru many trials n overcome them, oni then it wld evolve n emerge as a magnificent n beautiful one which overcomes n truimphs over others due to the amount of experience n difficulties it has gone thru...

im sorry to make u ppl wori abt me but i prefer u ppl jus stay ther by my side ok? but dun worri too much abt me... even if more difficulties lie ahead, ill always try my best n struggle thru it even if i were to fall back, ill always pick myself up kkz...

Im realli thkful n appreaciate everiones feelings...