Being happy for brief yet sad as usual...

todae, had elective common test ppr.... i confirmed made a careless mistake on one mcq but dunnoe abt the rest and oso the short-answer qns as well... sure got careless lah.. where got perfect rite?

anywayz, shld b able to get an A unless i realli screw things up...


aftr tt, went to paragon via transportation frm dad's bike.. of course i pillion lah...
No License yet lah... too busy and no capital to take the practical lessons...
anywayz, the contract under his name soo he has to be present ba

wana noe wat HP i bought?
ITS A HTC TOUCH!!!!
hav been dreaming to get it since long way back n finalli able to

the cost? 398
i forked out 300
my dad sponsored 98 for my bdae gift since i didnt get anything officially ba

HEHE!!! soo HAPPY!!!


soo here comes the sad part, the usual stress and pressure from the never ending academics problems tt i face... feeling soo tired now since didnt get a good nites' rest for a couple of days oredi thkz to some ppl at home...

presentations tmr n oso the Thermo assignment is dued tmr liao... presentation wise is ok for my part... ive done the changes n such soo i tink its ok lah... mr tan, our supervisor in-charge discussed wif us on the improvements we can make but i guess the improvements and changes we can make in such a short time is but veri limited itself.. i mean... hu can make a big overhaul in like 3 hours max but we oni got like 2hours on our hands since reachin home... and ive oredi done my part...

need to change the flow of the presentation and storyline is hard enuff... wif such little time i guess my leader of the grp decided not to change the flow... coz of time constraints...


im feelin soo tired i tink i need to take a short nap bfr i wake up to go and blow my brains out for thermo assignment... damn hard i cant recall anything nor can i understand anything at the moment...


i oredi noe im repeating my FPM module the nex comin sem since im beyond hope for tt module...

tryin my best is not enuff for that module i guess... tt means im a pathetic soul...

REE however, is another case, i jus need to focus on the theory more to pass since mainly theoratically headaches all the way... okok mainly all the way...


Thermo itself gotta study the whole module for the commontest... such a chore and its on mon morn the 1st ppr im afraid... ree is in the late aftrn...

then aftr tt i gotta chiong n do the reports wif the newsppr journal along... gotta complete it by wed bfr 12nn to submit the softcopy via huecampus and the journal as well... the hardcopy the following wk mon i tink if not mistaken... soo many things at hand n in need of my attention yet im soo lost and screwed up deep shit tt im jus sinking further in as i struggle...


well i tink ill go n take my snooze time bfr i cant animore...


tts all folks...

Moving On...

got over the FPM test ystrday... had a mths test todae though... i tink tis one can pass...

erm nex to bother myself realli troublesome/cumbersome will be the sempro presentation on tue which jus got changed to nex fri... then got one more maths tutorial nex wk... haiz... spoil my mood oredi.. coz he frgt abt tutorial 10.. he skipped to 11... frgtful guy....

well wadever lah... at least i noe i got like 2h lesson on mon aftr which will be free time to do my ppt n rehearse... since its on fri, ill lax abit n conc. on my revision for other things as well since thu i got Appreciation for Life Sciences CT ppr to prepare for... ya i noe open bk hence easy but more short-answers soo need to pratice the theory part in answering liao... if not i take too long inside ther... 1H ppr leh... cant play play... i like to check my ppr 2 times u noe...


well soo far... i need to replan my whole schedule since some changes oredi made.. like alot of changes... like RS, SEMPRO, MThs and oso others lah...


haiz...

well thermo tut abt to start in abt 5 mins... soo off i go prepare for saturation point...

In Deep Waters... Oso blue-ish... Feelin more bLuE!!!

well wada u noe... im finalli feelin the rush for things ahahaha... it took soo damn long tt now im oredi in deep waters and feelin damn blue n the water being blue due to the reflection from the blue-blue sky, its magnifying to my blue-ish life...

somethings wrong internally within me n i dunnoe y lor... haiz.. mayb i should jus go to a shrink n get tings straightened out before it consumes my own entity...


the oni way for me to catch-up to the surface of these pool of water is for me to swim endlessly n tire myself out to the limits if i wana survive.... yet, if i were to tire myself out before surfacing, wldnt it b like a suicide mission???

wat the heck... gotta take the chance rite? n risk it
i mean life is abt choices, planning, and if all fails risk it all... or am i tt type to do so?


OMG!!! im soo contradiciting myself too much... like these, it will never settle... OMG!!! freaking pissed!!! freaking Oblivion!!!


I've let down many people in my life n it will continue... how many must i let down to realise my own pathetic soulless self?

Am i jus a plain pathetic guy or wat? i keep feelin soo remorseful n pathetic as i recall of my past, present and foreseeing my future...

yet i try my best in tryin to follow my motto of, 'u can oni move forward, reminisce the past, live the present, move towards future...'

yet i feel as if im still stuck in the past... hav i done soo much sin tt im repayin it now? could it be tt? or is it because of myself? my pathetic self that seems to get in trouble wif almost everywher n everything? feelin soo clueless, feelin soo lost... im jus stuck rite here n now.. loosing my own true self, yet i feel the need of rushing but im jus stuck... is it human instinct wen in a tight spot, u'll try to get out of it ASAP?
yet i hav to try my best in keeping others from knowing im havin my own serious issues with myself... like a physcological warfare inside...
dun wana make ppl worry nor i wan them involved... it doesnt bring much good to those hu are involved wif my probs...
no benefits nor any credits... nothing good will come out of it...

I hav to fake to others that im OK n normal as ive always have... yet alone, in the shadows, behind closed doors... im suffering, crying out the pain within me tt im feelin n suffering from... the pain i plan n will bear alone for it is mine n mine alone to bear as the responsibility of my life falls onto my ownself, my own existence, my pathetic self entity...

Hoping n wishing to find the key to my life...

Feelin the BLUES...

i hav no idea wats wrong wif me... seriously speaking n being frank... im feelin the blues...
wat type of blues? herm i guess all the possible blues a person can feel...

haiz...

even now i dun even feel like bloggin... i tink ill post again later tonite lah... soo damn blue-ish...

NYP OPEN HOUSE '08

sat was the open house for my campus, NYP, where i was on duty ba... it was on the thu to sat, 10-12 jan.

wat i did was basically a tour guide for visitors... aka tourists ahahaha
but i oni brought one person for tour not official though... it was more like checking out the place... coz tt person oni come to get directions in case she gets lost the nex time she come over to do her tests and her interview..

its for DAE for SIDM digital animation....

anywayz, it was boring here n ther but the company i had was ok i guess... i meant the company i had for the tour registration wher i was stuck was great ppl... overall the day was ok... oni prob now is tt todae, mon 14th jan, seriously cant take my cold animore, went to the doc's and got an MC... took oni one day... haven studied... slept thruout the day...

haiz...
damn tired... ate drowsy med mah!


well i got my goodie bag from tt day but haven even touch it aftrwards... well...

i tink i better hit the hay again... woke up oni to eat dinner and watch heroes...well off to slp i guess...

2nd Wk of 2nd Term 2nd Yr

haiz... my days are comin to an end slowly as the exams for the end of yr is comin soon abt 4wks time appx tt is... n im soo not ready... gona die soon... feel like dying now though.

i seriously mean it... i failed nearli everything... oni my elective survived wif an A but sadly, elective not a core module hence im reali sadded to the core to say tt i failed everything again...

My RS which i thought cld passed failed by 10points... haiz...
i hate deriving n calculations...


wat the heck... at least didnt fail tt badly... overall i tink i can manage to make it back... seriously... REE failed oni moderately soo since the nex half is mostly theory hence ill chiong it n get at least a C... RS oso the same... FPM i dunnoe wat to say liao...
haiz...
THM jus need to put more effort in understanding wat im learnin lol...


n tts all for me now... soo sleepy n tired....

Officially... Start of the new Term...

2dae is the official start of the new term for the 2nd half of the semester... my last semester for the 2nd yr...

its been a journey wher my life is being tossed all over the place wif mind, body and soul aches... the soul part being my soul wifout the lovey-dovey things if ur wondering... (coz im single still n dun bother lookin for a partner now)


well, 31st dec, mon was but jus a stupid day i tell ya... its jus 2hours goin ther n rottin lor.. i was more asleep then was i payin attention... totally ou tof it sia...

well wa i did aftr sch i jus a norm wat i always do.. go out lor.... okok not wat i normally do but i had tings to take care of ba...

wat it is? gona leave u all to tink abt it ba...

then wen i got home it was like RS report to do... dono wether i did rite or not... RS was never my strong point... its now better than last time but oni so-so but better than failing rite?

to tink abt it, none was ever my strong point... the oni gd ting abt me is tt wen i wrk, i wrk hard... devoted to wrk but y cant i b devoted to my academics like wrk? herm... hav to try n balance it out tis wk... if not im DOOMED!!!

the new yr but a whole mess in my life... my resolution arh? i tink tis yr im not plannin to tell.. coz tellin ppl is like totali off ba... since later ppl will keep on remembering somesort n keep reminding u n wen u feel tt u cant achieve it wen all ur frens noe it then u'll gona feel more miserable... sooo for meeee...
i jus keepin my new yr resolution BIG BIG pasted of the my desk @ home... to remind me everyday without ppl ba... its not tt effective so as to say tellin ppl as well...
wat is effective?

it is how effective u wan it to b.... humans make the choices hence they can make them b how they wan them to b ba... all in the matter of the mind, will n spirit...

kkz... gtg get ready for sch n get washed up...

TO ALL: HOPE U ALL WILL HAV A GREAT NEW YR N TT UR RESOLUTIONS WILL B FULFILLED!!! HAPPY NEW YR N HAV A GREAT TIME IN SCH!!! (which i dun tink ill b havin)

well CYA ALL!!!