Somethings Realli Wrng Wif Me...!!!

Y am i bloggin soo much abt my poor health? well the answer is super duperly simple... coz its the main prob in my life rite now...

like i said bfr... tis stupid sickness has yet to pass til now... y am i still awake at tis point of time? well for starters, i cant slp til super late... tt means ill fall asleep wen everione strts to wake up... weird rite?
then ill like slp til aftrn around a 10am or so... n amazingly i will slp @ abt 5am or so...
earlier abit oso got but most of the time its aftr 330am...


yepz! sumtings sure is wrng wif me... tts y i cldnt come for mon lessons... im still running a fever that goes on n off... my body is still hotter than it shld b for a recovering person...

anwayz, since i was like totali out of myself, i hav neglected my studies n oso my reports which ar like due later... I totali cldnt repli sms, n msn msgs... coz sms for starters i didnt even noe my hp was on silent, secondly, im not sittin infrnt of the com the whole day n sumore im like lazing on my bed or sumting like gazing on the top board of my bunk bed...

my mind, body n soul are totali out of it i tel ya...
since i cant anyhow take off frm sch, since mon ystrday was a self-claimed MC, i cant afford to dare take another self-claim n sumore i haven submitted my MC for thu n fri... if i delay it anylonger... im in deep trouble... hope yinxi they all hav completed the REE report due later... im left wif the last parts of the report... the discussion n conclusion ba...

how long wil tt take i wunder?
well ill jus try my best at it ba... hope ill b able to finish it up by 330am... tt means an hour lef...
anywayz... if they still haven finalize or anything... ill jus compile it wif theirs n print it out bfr the REE itself lor... tts my oni choice i hav ba...

i hope ill get back on my feet superduperly soon... if not im suffering myself into oblivion... ARGH!!!!!

As Sickly as Before...

my absence frm sch since thur n mc has yet to help me recover frm tis pathetic sickly state... it seems my body is givin way to this sickness or wadever it is... i jus hope that tis calamity will pass on soon as in this current state, i cant seem to concentrate that well n it puts a great deal of energy into the thing tt i hav to do n wish to do...


i hav reports and many other things to do as well like strtin my revision for the upcomin class tests n so more other things like preparing myself for the upcomin events in my club activities...

Like this, it seems my schedule n plans hav been delayed n i realli am in trouble if these things doesnt go as well as planned... it wld mean more last min wrk which i myself dun like n i dun wish to impose more wrk than i can handle on myself n others around me...



OMG!!!! i jus wish tis stupid thing will realli pass on soon!!!

Am i a Weak Person?

y am i askin myself tt question is because im like always sick here n ther, more than a normal person shld b...



a few reasons i cld tink abt is because of my lifestyle and stuff tt i do that noone normal wld want to do lah... HEY!!! Dun tink beyond tt limit khoR!!!

anywayz, todae took mc... jus cldnt TAHAN animore!!! i was totali running a fever again... it goes ON n OFF soo many times it makes my head hurts... n mybody oso like soo tired to do much of anything.. had to attend wrk todae no choice... coz if i nvr go no income... since im oni wrkin 1job currently ba... still feelin the same sickly self...


I apologise to those hu expected me to b in sch but i totali cldnt remember i had an appointment or sumting wif u n totali frgt to notify u abt my absence... SORRY!!!


especially to Yamon-NeeChan....

well, i jus cant slp yet hence im bloggin liao...

FINALLY!!!

herm, if ppl were to read the title everione will totali b puzzled on wat im refering to rite?

well the FINALLI is but sumting ive been wantin to do for an entire mth n tt is to strt my practical lesson 1 for my class 2B... n since i hav the cash oredi, might as well book for the upcomin mth on the days tt im free rite?


soo i tink the 13th Nov, Tue, is a gd day itself since i end sch by 3pm i shld take up the 4+ time slot.. n it seems tt its still open so i tink i better go n book it soon...




for sch todae, nothing much happened xcept for during REE lab since like everything is new n many of us still didnt hav the lab manual wif us which resulted in many of us being totali blur.. hahahaah....

well its a norm sumtimes wif my class... lucki im always wif the bks... strted n ended as blur.. luckily still had help frm our lab lect. all went interestingly ba... nex wk due my 1st lab report... better do this nice nice...

I wan A's to pull my GPA frm a mere passable 2 to abt 3 by end of tis sem? is it possible i sumtimes ask myself... YESH! tts the answer if i get all B n above for all... of course must get A's as well...


*YAWNZ* im feelin slpy... nitez

2nd Wk of Sch

2dae is the strt of the 2nd week of sch... heres the summary of the day i guess...


Havin a cold since sat nite, got worse on sun but still the same todae... hence i cldnt get up on time for my maths lecture therefore had to miss it coz i was realli feelin 'weak' liao *(tts the oni way i can describe it as so)*...


woke up arnd noon which i felt a little tad better but my running nose was still runnin... went to sch for my 2pm lecture for RS... in the LT, my nose was realli givin way... *(OMG!!!)*

it was a realli sickly feelin, my shoulders n back was givin way as well... i was like tinking... did i slp wrong or wat sia... it realli aches n was painful sia...
then aftr tt lecture went home to get more panadol extra to eat sia... it helped abit i guess...
aftr that i went to sch but bfr tt i stopped by the SSDC to check if there was still space for nex mth to book... frgt i had to cash n was totali blur liao...

apologised to the staff n totali went to sch aftr tt for RS tutorial which i totali swear i frgt sumting serious..

I FRGT IT STARTED EARLIER TODAE!!!! was super 40mins late since i thought the class wld strt @ 640pm sia...

Lucki everything went ok... it ended 30mins earlier... coz most of it still jus learnt hence cant b rushin wen u still blur i guess...


Now my cold is still disturbing me...
Tml sch frm 9-3pm... hope everything will go better...
aftr tt i got dinner date wif my 2 god-bros @ novena...
hope that the (pang-seh the most) wil come...


well not puttin my hopes tt high... oh ya its costing me abt 50-60bucks... well its once a while like in a freaking once in a semester???? its a seafood buffet but i cant say wher since im not tt sure ba... if nice ill bring my other frens ther if u dun mind the price... n if its nice...


tts all for me... i tink i better go thru my sempro coz tmr is sempro n not forgettin to pack my bag... later frgt my lab coat i die sia!!! n oso not forgettin tmr got FPM tutorial straight aftr my SP!!!
ARGH!!!! SOO E FRUSTRATING!!!!


well i tink i better eat panadol to keep myself focused n feelin better abit rite?

RESIGNATION???

some ppl ar oredi askin me wen im resigning frm my PH part-time job... yesh its true tt i skipped the fri n sat time slot due to some issues tt i hav during the last min timings...


the reasons ar abit tad personal soo i cant say much abt it yet i can say a few or jus a single depends on how u c it ba.. since i dunoe how many i can type out here...

on the day, fri, to b exact... wen i was doin my own ting since i cldnt turn up for my wrk, i totali felt as if im subconsciously gettin further n further away frm tt place, meaning tt i dun feel the sense of belonging ther animore...


mayb coz i feel that i need to conc more on other things especially my studies...


soo hence ive decided to discuss wif my god-bro, closests frens n family members on this particular issue, it seems all agree that if i wana go n tender my resignation they actualli say tt its a greatest decision aftr it was hold off for many many n upteen many times since 3-6mths ago yet i still help onto tt place for wat reason exactly i cant say... many mixed reasons n feelings are present for tt decree of the thought for resignation...during tt time of course...

mayb due to the fact tt most of my 'kaki' 'members' were still ther but now totali changed, left me n cik zila which i cld say aint famiy like... haiz...


'LALA' n 'LiHA' are in their last year within their studies hence i wld say tt they wld prefer to conc n giv more of their time towards their studies of course tt wld b the natural course of decisions n events rite?

meanin, im left alone... cik zila is oredi busy ba... she oso got a family to take care off wif her husband's freelance job n stuff as well... n wats lef of my initial family ther? basicly oni me will b left...


yesh thers my managers ther but wats lef is INDAH hu isnt actualli the same time period as my family but she's close enuff...since many of my members are oredi gone, i feel no attachment to tt place n no mood to wrk without much motivation if most of the time im going to b doing most of the wrk like an overwrked employee slave...



haiz... finalli some of my innermost feelings surfaced... wadever lah... wat i said is true.. if they dun like it tt fine wif me but its true tt im overwrked n underpaid yet i still oni giv the complain of a little tired but i nvr did complain on how much i disliked it...


complaining is human nature but hating sumting is superhard unless u realli force them to a person hu oredi dislikes it... yet u make him or her dislike it to the core til it is classified as hatred...



tryin to make it clear to ppl... i am happy n fortunate tt i got to wrk ther but i guess i hav to move on in life to experience new things n i realli feel my attachment n bonds to tt place weakening by the thrust of time tt slowly cuts away that thin line...

Commitments?

sum of my frens which ar not within my poly but elsewher ar askin me wats my commitments for tis current semester...

Commitments??? i ask them... herm i guess i got a few @ hand oredi yet i can say tt im unsure on how to juggle them rite now since everything jus strted rite... n its still too earli to plan out a nice time management for myself...


herm, ill state a few of my commitments which is a sure DIE DIE to juggle...
1. Academics aka sch stuff...
2. Part-time wrk...
3. Social Life aka goin out wif frens...
4. Family
5. Personal Needs...


for those hu ar wundering y i decided to drop my candidacy for EXCO for SCL CLUB, heres a few reason;
1. repeating modules --> need more time to spend on those modules that ar reapeatin cum super weak if not i wouldnt hav failed rite?
2. juggling new part-time wrk wif sch --> new job with lower pay hence need to wrk abit more to earn the same amnt as bfr...
3. academicly decline --> need to conc. more on my academics, dun wan b 'too' distracted...
4. need time to socialize wif frens within NYP n outside as well...
5. Sum internal personal issues as well...
n etc.. which doesnt seem tt impt...

1st Week Of Sch In NYP

Since im awake earlier than im supposed to might as well use tis time to blog abt the 3days tt have passed since the new sch semester started rite?

As i said in my previous entry, mon was a hell of a timetable for me than my other classmates as i had to take up my repeat module, RS. The module stretched throughout the entire aftrn til nite... with the lectures, lab then followed by the nite tutorial sessions... of course thers no lab til wk 4 of the sch term which is gona b briefing anywayz...

ya i dun wana preach abt tt day coz im still not used to it ba... anywayz FYI, those hu hav nite classes, the nex day is an off day but im different since im an XTRA... it doesnt matter oni jus abit tiring for me...

Tue, was pretty much another usual day but oni 2hours long as we oni had to attend Semestral Project or SemPro for short aka SP...
Our supervisor in charge is the CPT Course Manager/Coordinator, Mr Tan Beng San...

Our grps n project tittles were randomly picked using lots... Haiz... Im with Peishan n Zhaozhen... Hope i ok wif them...

i jus hav to b myself, no? okok i take tt back... i shld jus b my wanting to b self... coz if i were to b myself i tink the entire project will b chaos for me coz u noe im tryin to change my ways n stuff soo gotta try to b tt new type rite? hehez...

oh ya... mon was oso maths lecture in the 1st 2hours time slot frm 8am-10am... wah i tell u... i dun understand a ting... That jus prove tt im totali oblivious of maths!!! DANGER!!! DANGER!!! wah like tis im reali in trouble...

WED, jus had to attend THM n REE lectures... by adeline ler n allen liu respectively...

ok lah.. but i cant absorb all of it since im totali like wanting to fall asleep but hey i didnt... soo like GD job to myself... ahahaha... its a great step...

well 2dae is thu hence i have lectures all the way wif my new elective module called appreciation of life sciences... n interestingly my lecturer is my club advisor from the LS side... then the last hour is mths again... haiz i hope i understand better... anywayz, the most interesting part abt it is i understood the easier part of the things he taught... is tt gd or bad? n tmr is my tutorial but he still haven told us wat to do for tutorial since we dun hav a study plan for this current sem's maths...


oh ya i oso gotta do quite a few planning here n ther for the club upcoming Commissioning of the new ExCo... im in-charge of welfare... gotta do the floor plan for the seating area n stuff... haiz... it tink i gotta finish it by tonite i tink soo tt means i gotta pull a late-niter preferbly til abt 2am arnd ther like last nite i had to plan my own wrkin days n such...


oso tryin to organize my life aftr sch wif wrk cum social cum family... ahahah...

well tts all frm me since i tink i gtg get ready for sch soon... hehez... cya

HARI RAYA AIDILFILTRI

AHAHAHAHHAHA!!!! i nearli n totali super duperly frgt abt HARI RAYA tt jus passed last saturday ahahaha... ya its my festive season... which supposedly ends within a mth's time

however it seems i totali gave up tt celebrating mood the nex day... well coz sun i was to wrk mornin shift, and then the nex day i was to hav lessons in sch which strts in the freakishly mon blue's mornin from 8am til nitey-nite 830pm...
haiz...

i had to bear alot of the breaks in between sia... i wen back home twice to waste the time away sia... cldnt stand the waitin time without havin much of anything to do hands on while waitin.... well tts all for the hari raya issue...


Y i dun feel the joyous occasion? mayb coz im too matured for my own gd? im not small anymore hence not alot of ppl wil gimme the packets bah since most of them will tink im like wat? 20++ yrs old?


*OUCH!!!* i feel old wen they tink tt way!!! hey!!! im still 18 ok... jus 18 yrs old on the 17th of sept... not even 1mth yet until okok wed oredi 1mth due... ahahaha.... ill post sum of my hari raya pics tt i took of my family n myself in it... ENJOY!!!

a fresh strt?

1st tings 1st i guess...
i have been truly unimaginably busy wif myself alot since aftr the exams n all coz im totali wrkin my butt off, as well as tryin to hav more bonding sessions wif my god-bros frm sec sch...


it was a totali weird hols i would hav to say wif many unexpected turn of events in my life i guess...

abt academics i wld say i guessed that it would eventualli hav to come to this kind of setting as i hav oredi foretold it in the middle of last semester...
some say im pyschic however, i defer to tt statement, one must noe one's own limit, no? tts where i used to confirm my prediction... yes although it contridicts sum other ppls' point of view abt tis matter that i said is becoz sum believe even if it has been predicted, u can still change the outcome of it if u try to change the present at that time wen it was predicted...


i agree that its contradictive but im the type tt once predict sumting its hard for me to change myself... but during the hols, i hav oredi went to find new enlightenment or somesort to chnge tis habit of mine bah...


soo i hope tis sem i hav a better life in juggling my time management ba... haiz...

anwayz, im now juggling 2 jobs while schling.. the reason y arh? a chnge of environment n oso gainin more experience in life...
NOT FORGETTING: TRAININ TO B INDEPENDENT EARLIER!!!

wat jobs i hav now? FULL TIME STUDENT, PART-TIME Pizza Hut Staff (BOH N FOH), PART-TIME 7-11 Staff...

currently im more concentrated in wrkin @ 7-11, ya i noe the pay lower than PH but hey its an easier job i mean slackin abit lah... of course got wrk to do still like wen stock come tts wher i come in, the guy hu has to carry the stock up to the storeroom lolz... the oni guy in the outlet leh...


well for PH, i tink i plan to resign by the end of the yr or soo i plan tt is...
will c how it goes ba... anywayz... i jus need the cash to save up pay up sch misc. stuff n oso save up for presents for ppls' bdaes as well as my bro's upcomin bdae nex yr... he wans sumting soo EX!!! n i oso still haven strted wif my Class 2B pratical lessons... oh ya, i PASSED on my 1st attempt for the RTT (Riding Theory Test) last fri... ahhaha....


ill blog more tmr aftr my wrk abt sch life in the 1st wk of sem4 in NYP SCL CPT...