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2008-06-25T18:32:00.002+08:00

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The 1st Wk Of Sch n Stuff

2008-04-21T10:59:00.003+08:00

Tue;
well tue was the best day sia! didnt go to sch since oni got mths tutorial... n the most interesting part of it was that i cldnt believe 2 classes hu had the same mths tutorial 'PON' the class as well...

makin it my free day frm sch but i had to go to wrk frm 3pm-11pm...

Wed;
had a morning lect for mths, at bloody 8am in the morning... damn hard for me to wake up sia... luckily someone soo kind to drive me to sch... wakakakakaka
had a lect, then went to HMT tut but no tut ba... found out wen cher nvr come... actualli i suspected soo but hey hu noes rite?
aftr tt went to central canteen McD ther n found my other gang ther... chatted then i went to lib to print n copy some stuff... then went to the canteen again, met my sis, then ate brkfast then went home...
went home then i do wat arh? yeah! mail the stuff... suddenly fell asleep, boss called, but i totali was in dream land wen i was tokin on the hp soo i cant recall nor i noe wat i said...
went to wrk abt 630pm-11pm

Thu;
woke up late DAMN IT!!! went to sch on a cab wif sis.... didnt want to b late... had 2h mornin mths lecture ba...
aftr tt since got no AIC tut, soo i went back home for lunch, went back to sch for my 1pm-6pm lab... of course it didnt last to that time slot ba... the 5hours time slot is only applicable to the lab session wen its makin aspirin lol...
Went to wrk straight aftr i reached home since no staff...
Boon Pin the other PT frm Kallang Stadium came to help... wah everytime i wrk wif him he sure tok alot lah...

Fri;
had oni one class at 1pm-3pm... AIC Lec... thats the oni lesson i had on fri but actualli got one more; Pharma tut but since its cancelled soo i go back home ba alone... pharma tut is at 5pm... lol i got 2h break in btwn... sianz... well hope can get some nice games on the psp by then lah to play... lol... sat n sun was a mayhem wrkin hours... didnt hav enuff rest...

Sat;
mornin shift, plus half-swing frm 8-11pm... lol totali drained... the break in btwn oni good to watch tv n eat my meals...

Sun;
mornin shift again... then went straight home to go to NLB return books... totali tired.... accompanied by my bro since no one at home (actualli my dad is at home slpin but he wrk night shift soo he cant take care of the lil kid rite?)... then came back to yishun to eat LJS for lunch... that wld b for me... aftr tt went to the 'PASAR MALAM' get some stuff for dinner...
Went home n rested for a while... totali frgt abt my hw for the 2nd wk of sch... had to help out wif stockin up at wrk frm 9-11pm appx.
went down abt 915pm then came back abt 1030pm.... too tired oredi...
cldnt go to bed... not sleepy yet hence watch movie called AUGUST RUSH...
was nice lah... but i skipped a lot of the scenes since i dun like to listen to long long speeches in the movies... no suspense no drama at all... jus sian... soo i oni watched the scenes that interest me in lol...

ahahahaha
well aftr tt went to bed n i tell u, cldnt slp well... flung here n ther soo many times... mayb coz my body aching all over... haiz...

N jus woke up abt 1030am jus now... hehe...
well, the worst part is... i still haven do my HW!!!!! ARGH!!!!
i got to finish up the mths tut by todae coz tmr the mths tut n sumore, got HMT lab briefing aftr tt, then got HMT tut on wed which i dunnoe hav or not but i gotta strt doin the tutorials bfr tt day as well... must try ba... if at least i do can get the 5% i tink even if wrng...

then got pharma tut which rite now same condition as HMT... dunnoe whether got or not...

haiz... trouble some me... the 1st time i feel soo worked up for jus 4mods... not like last time wher i got soo many mods...
coz mayb the lesser the better for me to chiong?
well hope it goes well tis sem... it has to!!!

signing off to a later date... =P

1st Day of Year3...

2008-04-14T21:39:00.003+08:00

today, sch started at 1pm for me... as i had no AIC lab for wk1-2...
erm, had HMT lec from 1pm-3pm...
Lecturer IC is Mr Dennis Lim.. the Cold Lame Guy...

y i say that? coz its the truth about his jokes... ive experienced some of it before but not to the extent of todae's experience...
OH HEAVENS!!! call out ppl then ask random questions out of topic then change topic super fast sia... back to the topic on HMT...

haiz... now i noe how my classmates last sem felt...

Heard a gurl fell down at CPTC liao... i noe hu she is liao... but as an aquaintance
dunoe how she is though
anywayz, mr lim let us off 30mins earli since he said he has other things to attend to lol
since i got half an hour... i went to blk e to get the locker application form... is it worth it? for me it is since ill b in sch for an entire yr unlike my cliques wher they will hav to go for their cptc training n attachment

Aftr PHARMA lect, mdm chua let us off earli by half an hour as well... which calls the end of the day in sch... went back wif simin-dajie n weide... stop by the POPULAR outlet in Yishun... got some stationary stuff... i totali frgt to buy envelopes lol...
y i need them? erm lets say i need them to send the stuff to 3 different addresses since i hav alot of things that i hav to submit to different corporates...
erm business or personal? erm personal lah... nope! im not in trouble or anything! jus applyin and sending the necessary documents over to them for my applications...

Wat applications if u wan to know? erm some applications lah... one of them is the locker the other 2 is a secret lol...

Friday's BBQ/ sat n sun wrkin days...

2008-04-14T11:14:00.003+08:00

herm i frgt to post wat happened on the fri's bbq... frgt sori lah...

my mind tis few wks has been veri frgtful n most things tt i suppose to b tasks jus slipped my mind
= P

erm, went to Vic's place earlier than the meeting time for the entire gang as i thought i wld jus help out with the preparations lol...
in the end i shld hav met wif the entire gang coz being earli was useless as the equipment was unable at the time and sumore, an incident or more like a show happened... that kicked up quite a stir...

haiz... i knew it was a bad day in the aftrn... y i get dragged wen im havin 2nd feelings abt going?
haiz... cant help it i guess... im still gullible i guess..

well i luv gatherings soo thats my nature i guess...

well in the end didnt eat that much coz i had no appetite... the food arh? how it goes herm...
well those that ar cooked by me ended up as usual --> SHIOK!!!
then the other pit was overheated and the chickens was like roasted to black... ahahahaha...
dun mind me sayin but they no skill... aahhahaha...

mayb i got yrs on bbq n sumore im a kitchen helper everi FnB job i take up ba... n oso service line abit lah... still accumulating the experiences...

not wanting to brag but u need to know how to do things ba...
went back by cab wif xiaobin-mei n wei suan-ge
tok quite alot of things while in the cab n while lookin one as well...
had quite alot of fun ba in the end the entire gathering although got sum unwanted happenings...

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Sat n Sun

it was a normal day as usual wrkin morning shift... erm will b missing my 'Kak Batma' my colleague... hus resignation is today n she went to the 7-Eleven HQ in Tampines to finalize the stuff...

erm sumore i dunno how things will b wifout her ba... thks to her i decided to join 7-Eleven ba... now she not arnd the thing has to go on but not the same... hope to c her back in SG to wrk nex yr as she promised to come back to tis country to wrk

Btw she resigned coz her dad terminally ill, i mean unstable condition ba... n has to go back to her hometown in malacca...

well i gtg n get ready for sch...

cya peepz

Thu... A Boring Day

2008-04-13T18:28:00.001+08:00

Thu, 10th April, was to me but jus another boring day... woke up watch anime then went to wrk...
Aftr that came home then asked ppl convince me to go for the BBQ/Bdae/Gathering on fri aftrn to evening....

Well ended up Going...

Wrkin Sunrise Shift

2008-04-09T20:28:00.002+08:00

ello' peepz

let me tell ya wat i had to go thru at wrk frm yesterday nite to todae mornin...

Yes! i had to wrk the nite shift... not used to it lah... 1st time for me to wrk the entire sunrise shift alone... i used to wrk til 3~4am max...
wah soo damn tiring coz i didnt hav enuff rest bfr wrk ba hence lack of slp n such...

pretty damn quiet but got few ppl hu come in once a while but most of the time its a bore but quite fun in a way coz since u got pretty much alot of time for cleaning up i mean washing the equipment n such... though i can oni do soo much since it was my 1st time...

got back home abt 8+ then cldnt slp since was feelin damn warm... had to make myself tired by watchin some anime... ahahaha
typical me i guess

slept at abt bfr 10am i tink n woke up abt realli late aftrn abt herm... i tink i woke up at abt 4~5pm
not that long ba... i guess i still need more time to snooze... still feelin tired at tis point of time...
then call came for me, my manager asked whether i could wrk from 6-11pm todae
however, being like jus woke up n such, i was still feelin sleepy n unfocused hence i told her i cldnt make it...
so thers no change to my roster except for the sunrise shift... nvr gona go another sunrise shift wen thers sch n nvr do it on a fri-sun as its the time wher 'HANTU' (GHOSTS) which im refering to humans hu are like ghosts hum dunnoe how to slp or do sumting more beneficial...

wat hav i been doin since i woke up? erm, eating my breakfast, lunch, watching the tv n anime... n well bloggin i guess

i tink im gona pass out soon.. super drained of my 'genki'ness lol

take care peepz

Summarised Life Aftr The Exams Til Now...

2008-04-08T18:47:00.002+08:00

yello peepz

yes i hav yet to post much the past few mths or actualli more jus like 2mths approximately ba...
been busy wif academics, wrk and myself lah...
*(actualli i jus tend to make myself more busy than i can handle)*

well lets sum up wat happened in my life since the last post...

1. Exams over, dun care abt pprs animore... results better;
2. Passed all except for mths... hav to repeat...
3. D for Thermo, Fluid; D+ for RS; C+ or C for REE, Pass for SemPro, A for my Elective...

Then after that was busy wif Sch's Freshmen Orientation plus part-time wrk ba
Jus got back frm sch todae abt aftr lunch having completed my timetable registration wif mr chee; my mentor

Had a hard time tryin to fix it coz alot of my modules clashes wif the other meaning.. mr yr2 mods which i hav 1 to repeat n 2 i still owe them... but i cldnt fit all yr2 hence oni took the repeat plus HMT... those 2 are a must...

Had to fix those 2 to my yr3 mods which unfortunately cldnt fit nicely, supposedly fix in 6 mods together but oni cld fix in 4 i guess... no choice but i hav no reason to complain ba...
if i am to retain in sch for an entire yr i guess i cant complain... i brought tis upon myself n hence ill jus hav to c it thru after reasoning wif myself...

told my dad abt my situation... he didnt react to it wif any anger or any disagreement...
he noes the choices i make are for my own gd hence he left it as soo... as i tink he believes that those choices ar the best one from all the options available i guess...

btw borrowed bks on psychology frm the NLB... planning to strt readin tis weekend... i still hav to fix up the pics for the FO liao...

many things to do yet soo little time for myself....

BYE BYE

1 paper down, 2 more to go.../ Side Story: Summon from TP

2008-02-19T22:03:00.002+08:00

wadever i've studied for ystrday's ppr was totali 'LOST'...
wat i meant was i was totali brain dead wen i went into the exam centre...
Y?

haven been able to slp for the past 2 days bfr the exams...
insomnia? mayb... i held out a record braking more than 24hours for the first time lol... of course i had like short naps in between my long hours of being alive... lol...

haiz...

feelin veri saded abt that incident but since its over i cant do anything but to strive harder nex time... since tis module i still got a chance... yep, still positive. told my simin-da-jie n weide that i most probably with a high chance wunt b able to c them for the nex sem aka meaning not in any classes together since i gotta go n deal wif my repeat modules plus the modules i have yet taken for the 2nd yr...

may God b wif me on the nex sem as ill try my best to gain back the path...

SIDE STORY

got suayed in the mornin abt 8-12mins before goin into the centre...
TP SUMMON us, well for weide n simin they realli did break the safety rules...
4 me, another story which i consider super suay...
i was summon for which i didnt break any rules as of yet... to b caught red handed tt is...
i didnt cross yet as i oredi saw the men in white n blue, yet it was too late to tell simin n weide
hence i waited for the light, but tt TP officer called me, i thought i did sumthing but then i didnt

mayb coz i was super sleepy n didnt noe tt if i did tt ill get booked too... n i stupidly allowed tt officer to do tt to me... he called me before the green man was lit up, soo i went towards him meanin i crossed the road... n due to tt idiot!! he booked me too

i remember his face, the nex time i c him im gona pray tt bad luck falls on him for an entire day which oso makes him soo SUAY!!! coz of him, i felt soo SUAY as i did my ppr, forgettin wat i had studied...

STRESSED UP!!!

anywayz,

Unbelievable towards myself -> 'Me Givin Up On Myself'

2008-02-18T03:50:00.002+08:00

Undoubtly, i, myself have given up on myself for the Yr
To my own astonishment, im shocked by my own self-made declaration towards my own self.
To my own consciousness, its a decision made by myself after assessing the undeniable truth of myself in reality that i am a FAILURE n a LOSER by no doubt for the Yr

Yet, it is without a doubt that this decision took an entire CNY wk til todae. N hence, the decision was made with all my personas and myself discussing abt it.
There is no backing out of this decision n hence to all whom are reading. My sincerest apologies to yet again, let u down as im not a person u shld put ur trust and believes in as i feel that im jus a LOSER and a FAILURE...

U shld not n i repeat shld not have any reliance or depend on me.
I have too many complications to deal within my own life for the time being...
Is GOD testing me by givin me many trials which seems to be comin rite after another?
That i do not know and i dare not question. For Fate and Destiny is now in GOD'S almighty hands.

I am powerless to take control n play a part to my own life. A SAD LIFE i have. Yet, I still try my best in keepin myself positive and lookin forward towards a brighter future. But this decision made, is a serious one which i myself can not revert as its been made and have been carried out. No choice.

But...

I hope to start my life anew without my frens as they are progressing along very well than me. I dun wish to b a burden in draggin them down as well hence, i've made the choice of cutting the connection which links me to them.
Its a hard decision for me, but im OK as i've made too many sacrifices and mistakes in the past which i dun want to repeat and hence i want them out of the picture so that i can concentrate more towards fixin my own life without worries.

Soo... What's the burden of continuing my life in POLY without my frens by my side? the same as ive always been, the lone wolf... or more towards lil' ol' me -> Lonesome Me...

Todae will be the start of the Semestral Exams... but before worryin abt something which even though im studyin for it now... i cant seem to absorb nor can i process anything on the module...

NOTE: TO MY FRENS whom are concerned, my sincerest apologies yet again. Dun bug me, concentrate on urself kkz... Dun mind me, jus forget abt me.. PLS!!!!
This will lessen my pain of thinking abt the issues that jus pours in my head and uselessly thinking abt how to settle it wen i noe i cant...
PLS!!! jus leave me alone!!! sobz...

Back to overall progress for all the modules...
MTHS -> i tink im failin the sem exams hence F
THM -> F mayb?
REE -> F mayb?
FPM -> F before exams
RS -> D/Pass
SP -> Pass/ C+?
AppLS -> A

What i Owe the Sch;
Mths CL2301
HMT

If i were to fail my MTHS n FPM then i cant take any 3rd Yr modules plus the other mths i owe... wat the heck... im oredi gona stay back for a semester soo i tink ill jus take my time slowly but surely nex sem lor... since i jus cant take it animore!!! too much for lil poor o me to handle...

Being happy for brief yet sad as usual...

2008-01-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

todae, had elective common test ppr.... i confirmed made a careless mistake on one mcq but dunnoe abt the rest and oso the short-answer qns as well... sure got careless lah.. where got perfect rite?

anywayz, shld b able to get an A unless i realli screw things up...

aftr tt, went to paragon via transportation frm dad's bike.. of course i pillion lah...
No License yet lah... too busy and no capital to take the practical lessons...
anywayz, the contract under his name soo he has to be present ba

wana noe wat HP i bought?
ITS A HTC TOUCH!!!!
hav been dreaming to get it since long way back n finalli able to

the cost? 398
i forked out 300
my dad sponsored 98 for my bdae gift since i didnt get anything officially ba

HEHE!!! soo HAPPY!!!

soo here comes the sad part, the usual stress and pressure from the never ending academics problems tt i face... feeling soo tired now since didnt get a good nites' rest for a couple of days oredi thkz to some ppl at home...

presentations tmr n oso the Thermo assignment is dued tmr liao... presentation wise is ok for my part... ive done the changes n such soo i tink its ok lah... mr tan, our supervisor in-charge discussed wif us on the improvements we can make but i guess the improvements and changes we can make in such a short time is but veri limited itself.. i mean... hu can make a big overhaul in like 3 hours max but we oni got like 2hours on our hands since reachin home... and ive oredi done my part...

need to change the flow of the presentation and storyline is hard enuff... wif such little time i guess my leader of the grp decided not to change the flow... coz of time constraints...

im feelin soo tired i tink i need to take a short nap bfr i wake up to go and blow my brains out for thermo assignment... damn hard i cant recall anything nor can i understand anything at the moment...

i oredi noe im repeating my FPM module the nex comin sem since im beyond hope for tt module...

tryin my best is not enuff for that module i guess... tt means im a pathetic soul...

REE however, is another case, i jus need to focus on the theory more to pass since mainly theoratically headaches all the way... okok mainly all the way...

Thermo itself gotta study the whole module for the commontest... such a chore and its on mon morn the 1st ppr im afraid... ree is in the late aftrn...

then aftr tt i gotta chiong n do the reports wif the newsppr journal along... gotta complete it by wed bfr 12nn to submit the softcopy via huecampus and the journal as well... the hardcopy the following wk mon i tink if not mistaken... soo many things at hand n in need of my attention yet im soo lost and screwed up deep shit tt im jus sinking further in as i struggle...

well i tink ill go n take my snooze time bfr i cant animore...

tts all folks...

Moving On...

2008-01-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

got over the FPM test ystrday... had a mths test todae though... i tink tis one can pass...

erm nex to bother myself realli troublesome/cumbersome will be the sempro presentation on tue which jus got changed to nex fri... then got one more maths tutorial nex wk... haiz... spoil my mood oredi.. coz he frgt abt tutorial 10.. he skipped to 11... frgtful guy....

well wadever lah... at least i noe i got like 2h lesson on mon aftr which will be free time to do my ppt n rehearse... since its on fri, ill lax abit n conc. on my revision for other things as well since thu i got Appreciation for Life Sciences CT ppr to prepare for... ya i noe open bk hence easy but more short-answers soo need to pratice the theory part in answering liao... if not i take too long inside ther... 1H ppr leh... cant play play... i like to check my ppr 2 times u noe...

well soo far... i need to replan my whole schedule since some changes oredi made.. like alot of changes... like RS, SEMPRO, MThs and oso others lah...

haiz...

well thermo tut abt to start in abt 5 mins... soo off i go prepare for saturation point...

In Deep Waters... Oso blue-ish... Feelin more bLuE!!!

2008-01-23T10:35:00.000+08:00

well wada u noe... im finalli feelin the rush for things ahahaha... it took soo damn long tt now im oredi in deep waters and feelin damn blue n the water being blue due to the reflection from the blue-blue sky, its magnifying to my blue-ish life...

somethings wrong internally within me n i dunnoe y lor... haiz.. mayb i should jus go to a shrink n get tings straightened out before it consumes my own entity...

the oni way for me to catch-up to the surface of these pool of water is for me to swim endlessly n tire myself out to the limits if i wana survive.... yet, if i were to tire myself out before surfacing, wldnt it b like a suicide mission???

wat the heck... gotta take the chance rite? n risk it
i mean life is abt choices, planning, and if all fails risk it all... or am i tt type to do so?

OMG!!! im soo contradiciting myself too much... like these, it will never settle... OMG!!! freaking pissed!!! freaking Oblivion!!!

I've let down many people in my life n it will continue... how many must i let down to realise my own pathetic soulless self?

Am i jus a plain pathetic guy or wat? i keep feelin soo remorseful n pathetic as i recall of my past, present and foreseeing my future...

yet i try my best in tryin to follow my motto of, 'u can oni move forward, reminisce the past, live the present, move towards future...'

yet i feel as if im still stuck in the past... hav i done soo much sin tt im repayin it now? could it be tt? or is it because of myself? my pathetic self that seems to get in trouble wif almost everywher n everything? feelin soo clueless, feelin soo lost... im jus stuck rite here n now.. loosing my own true self, yet i feel the need of rushing but im jus stuck... is it human instinct wen in a tight spot, u'll try to get out of it ASAP?
yet i hav to try my best in keeping others from knowing im havin my own serious issues with myself... like a physcological warfare inside...
dun wana make ppl worry nor i wan them involved... it doesnt bring much good to those hu are involved wif my probs...
no benefits nor any credits... nothing good will come out of it...

I hav to fake to others that im OK n normal as ive always have... yet alone, in the shadows, behind closed doors... im suffering, crying out the pain within me tt im feelin n suffering from... the pain i plan n will bear alone for it is mine n mine alone to bear as the responsibility of my life falls onto my ownself, my own existence, my pathetic self entity...

Hoping n wishing to find the key to my life...

Feelin the BLUES...

2008-01-20T16:25:00.000+08:00

i hav no idea wats wrong wif me... seriously speaking n being frank... im feelin the blues...
wat type of blues? herm i guess all the possible blues a person can feel...

haiz...

even now i dun even feel like bloggin... i tink ill post again later tonite lah... soo damn blue-ish...

NYP OPEN HOUSE '08

2008-01-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

sat was the open house for my campus, NYP, where i was on duty ba... it was on the thu to sat, 10-12 jan.

wat i did was basically a tour guide for visitors... aka tourists ahahaha
but i oni brought one person for tour not official though... it was more like checking out the place... coz tt person oni come to get directions in case she gets lost the nex time she come over to do her tests and her interview..

its for DAE for SIDM digital animation....

anywayz, it was boring here n ther but the company i had was ok i guess... i meant the company i had for the tour registration wher i was stuck was great ppl... overall the day was ok... oni prob now is tt todae, mon 14th jan, seriously cant take my cold animore, went to the doc's and got an MC... took oni one day... haven studied... slept thruout the day...

haiz...
damn tired... ate drowsy med mah!

well i got my goodie bag from tt day but haven even touch it aftrwards... well...

i tink i better hit the hay again... woke up oni to eat dinner and watch heroes...well off to slp i guess...

2nd Wk of 2nd Term 2nd Yr

2008-01-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

haiz... my days are comin to an end slowly as the exams for the end of yr is comin soon abt 4wks time appx tt is... n im soo not ready... gona die soon... feel like dying now though.

i seriously mean it... i failed nearli everything... oni my elective survived wif an A but sadly, elective not a core module hence im reali sadded to the core to say tt i failed everything again...

My RS which i thought cld passed failed by 10points... haiz...
i hate deriving n calculations...

wat the heck... at least didnt fail tt badly... overall i tink i can manage to make it back... seriously... REE failed oni moderately soo since the nex half is mostly theory hence ill chiong it n get at least a C... RS oso the same... FPM i dunnoe wat to say liao...
haiz...
THM jus need to put more effort in understanding wat im learnin lol...

n tts all for me now... soo sleepy n tired....

Officially... Start of the new Term...

2008-01-02T08:22:00.000+08:00

2dae is the official start of the new term for the 2nd half of the semester... my last semester for the 2nd yr...

its been a journey wher my life is being tossed all over the place wif mind, body and soul aches... the soul part being my soul wifout the lovey-dovey things if ur wondering... (coz im single still n dun bother lookin for a partner now)

well, 31st dec, mon was but jus a stupid day i tell ya... its jus 2hours goin ther n rottin lor.. i was more asleep then was i payin attention... totally ou tof it sia...

well wa i did aftr sch i jus a norm wat i always do.. go out lor.... okok not wat i normally do but i had tings to take care of ba...

wat it is? gona leave u all to tink abt it ba...

then wen i got home it was like RS report to do... dono wether i did rite or not... RS was never my strong point... its now better than last time but oni so-so but better than failing rite?

to tink abt it, none was ever my strong point... the oni gd ting abt me is tt wen i wrk, i wrk hard... devoted to wrk but y cant i b devoted to my academics like wrk? herm... hav to try n balance it out tis wk... if not im DOOMED!!!

the new yr but a whole mess in my life... my resolution arh? i tink tis yr im not plannin to tell.. coz tellin ppl is like totali off ba... since later ppl will keep on remembering somesort n keep reminding u n wen u feel tt u cant achieve it wen all ur frens noe it then u'll gona feel more miserable... sooo for meeee...
i jus keepin my new yr resolution BIG BIG pasted of the my desk @ home... to remind me everyday without ppl ba... its not tt effective so as to say tellin ppl as well...
wat is effective?

it is how effective u wan it to b.... humans make the choices hence they can make them b how they wan them to b ba... all in the matter of the mind, will n spirit...

kkz... gtg get ready for sch n get washed up...

TO ALL: HOPE U ALL WILL HAV A GREAT NEW YR N TT UR RESOLUTIONS WILL B FULFILLED!!! HAPPY NEW YR N HAV A GREAT TIME IN SCH!!! (which i dun tink ill b havin)

well CYA ALL!!!

Hols over oredi???

2007-12-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

well wada u noe... todae's the last day of the hols for me... i mean those hu sch in NYP tt is coz tmr mornin classes will resume however will end half day meanin all classes will b on until 1pm which aftr tt is new yr hols...

haiz...

i jus wished tmr got no sch sia... i seriously mean it... how nice it wld b tt is...

well enuff of me complainin tt is...

ive been soo busy wif wrk n other things tt i totali frgt abt the other stuff tt im supposed to do... how sadded sia...

i mean i frgt abt the reports, studyin n all academic related stuff... am i such a bad person or wat? some say im jus being too pre-independent tt im blinded by which is more impt... ACADEMICS!!! i mean seriously, im jus in the mood to earn as much as i can i mean this is the hols rite wher one is suppose to enjoy n relaz... but i kept forgettin tt im in poly, the hols seasons arent like the past wher i was still in sec sch n stuff

coz in poly, the hols are different by a time lapse of 3~4 mths... haiz...

mayb my old self is not adjusting well aftr 2 whole yrs i guess... well nex yr will b my last whole 1yr stretch if everything goes well which i dun tink it will though...

well one can always say DIE but one must always TRY!!!

tts my new motto for the new yr... aahhahaahah DIE DIE DIE !!! but must TRY TRY TRY!!!

WELL HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

Last Wk of the Hols / Merry Christmas N Happy New Yr

2007-12-24T09:01:00.000+08:00

whooossshhh!!!

time flies super fast wen ur super occupied wif sumting... well for me that sumting is wrkin here n ther n nearli everywher... jus exagerating....

i mean but i am moving arnd for wrk... im wrkin at two place wif two different jobs... One @ Bedok N the other is my permanent PT job dwnstairs.... tiring to do 2jobs for 2wks... lucky the temp job at bedok oni requires me to wrk 6 days in total for this 2wks break hols...

Every time i finish wrk, im jus damn tired coz i always go end wrk later than usual... Do i get paid extra? Dunnoe... Dun Care abt it tt much...

Wrkin for LUV i guess... sumtimes in life, this is the way coz if ur too picky n selfish, ur life in the future wil b in dire state... I dun mean to pick on anyone nor am i sayin tt i will come true...
jus stating some facts abt life...

ive been wrkin for how many yrs oredi arh? herm... since the O's i wld guess already 2yrs plus a mth i guess...how come i got a mth oredi arh? well bfr the O's i was already wrkin in really fact... wrkin temp jobs here n ther... for like a few days here n ther hence for tt time all add up together wld b a mth i guess... if we add my job experience for my relatives' catering services since i was younger then i wld hav wrked during my pri sch years...

hows tt for wrkin experience? i got more than most of my peers... tts y i noe tt my type is veri hard to come by as ill do my job as to wat my abilities allow me to n ill wrk hard...

Y is wrkin n academics soo different in my life? i can wrk super superly hardwrkin for WRK but not tt much for ACADEMICS??

im jus clueless abt tis sumtimes... mayb coz im pre-independent n as soo its subconsciously affecting me i guess? i mean in the sense tt i hav the need to b more independent n neglecting my studies??? mayb but i tink i realli need to psycho back my mindset...

haiz... new yr i tink ill go n psycho myself til i goo looney!!!

okok tts all for me... MERRY XMAS N A HAPPY NEW YR PPL!!!

Totali CLueless....

2007-12-19T18:39:00.000+08:00

im jus soo damn clueless lor... i mean seriously, i dun hav any clue on wat to do for the hols except WRK WRK N MORE WRK... for the 1st wk tt is... 2nd wk got WRK + HW!!!

HW = homewrk = reports, tutorials, revisions n academic stuff

well, jus got back abt an hour ago frm my bedok temp job, hav to go to 7-11 job in 10mins.... haiz... im jus like soo damn stressed up lol...

soo far soo gd tt is at bedok... quite the bore yet its a great learnin experience ba since its sumting new n im learnin a few new things... overall = its a good learnin experience...

kk gtg to wrk liao i mean wrk dwnstairs... cya... laterz...

Exams Over / Hols Started

2007-12-17T19:43:00.001+08:00

My last ppr being on thu was super depressing sia... i dun wana tok abt it n hence i shant but i can say tt frm tis tone of mine u all can expect y i say as soo ba...

OKOK... been busy since aftr the ppr... I mean i started wrkin like mad again since aftr tt ppr...
FRI -> mornin woke up n had to chiong improvise redeco, n wrap a bouquet of flowers (note: not real flowers)...

FoR whom? well for cher lah... Ms Chian Hwey Min to b exact... not my idea... im jus doin my part since i cant make a flower lol... n tt job is to wrap the bouquet... well wadever lah... it turned out quite ok.. a little help frm my sis last min coz i one person cant hold it together tt well...

Fri was totali a depressing news day i mean seriously, as on my previous few posts, i stated abt the briefing on the attachment rite? The results!!! --> My class/batch goes off for attachment 1st however im leftout coz i owe the sch modules hence im not eligible to follow them...

Hence since tt day my mood has been a depressing one... not depressed coz of the news but i oso DUNNOE LIAO!!!

wats wrng wif me? no drive to chiong anything liao... my wrk oso like not my likeliself....
oh ya... jus got back frm my temp job at bedok area ther... Y ther? jus helping out a fren at her place wher she's wrkin... btw an autie if ur wondering... jus helping out for 6days for the entire 2wk hols... earnin some xtra cash to buy new yr gifts...

herm... i hope my cheerful looney self gets well soon... i wana chiong my pract which due to tis mood i rather slack away my time... dotz...

OKOK... ill blog again later aftr i wash up.... Drenched in the rain n 1st ting i do wen i come back aftr puttin away my stuff is to blog... lol... ahahahaha

Stressing Out!

2007-12-13T13:25:00.001+08:00

i noe since im left wif like wat? appx 2h bfr i hav to leave the house n catch the train rite... i mean bloggin now instead of conc. on my revision...

well im doin tis coz its now break time... i mean brunch time...
soo far... the revision has yet to b tt fruitful... at least much better than ystrdy as ive absorbed much more n can remember rather than wat happened ystrday mayb coz my of headache ystrday tt lasted throughout the entire day...

herm, wonder wat i did to make it as soo?

well the past is the past rite? better not dwell upon it...

wah! hard time sia i mean tis module... wah i tink i sure die one but i wunt giv in to the ppr until the end... ill jus keep on struggling til i cant lor...

tts the way i live my life... try ur hardest til the last sec even if i were to say DIE DIE DIE DEAD!!! all the time... ahahaha... say one thing but do another ahahaha....

reverse pyschology works in dire times like exams ahahaha.... always say DIE but always TRY...

hehez... however oni like a few of my frens notice this particular weird habit trend of mine...wen i say few i mean super duperly few like can count jus using on hand... cant b specific on the number but i cld say tt the numbers are 1-5 ahahahaha...

kkz... back to studyin... later aftr the exams hav to laz abit then go to wrk.... kkz... laterz... wen i reach home if got time bfr wrk, ill post up ya...

The LAST PAPER!!!

2007-12-13T09:12:00.000+08:00

jus woke up... ystrday's effort to study FPM was very unsuccessful n totali a waste of effort..

Y? coz i totali cant remember wat i studied... did i study wrong or wat i dunnoe...
well lets jus forget wat happened yesterday n focus on todae's case...

2dae, my ppr starts at 430pm meaning i hav to b at the exam centre aka lecture theatre 15mins bfr hence 415pm...
i have like abt 6 hours bfr i need to go off to sch... but the time ill b using to study will b lesser than tt since i gotta eat n stuff rite?

hence assuming as soo, ill have oni abt 4hours or soo to study... is the time sufficient enuff since ystrday was not fruitful at all?
lets jus do my best ya?
tts all a guy like me can do for the time ba...

All the best to u all n myself

2 papers down, 1 more to go...

2007-12-12T09:13:00.001+08:00

2 papers are of past, 1 more to go...

the pprs that i hav oredi taken n past is that of Reactor System N Maths...
RS was ok i guess... confusing at first n was still confusing til the end of the ppr...
Y i say like tt? well its coz i was goin arnd n arnd the qn.

coz of me goin round n round, i had a major headache n cldnt finish my last qn...
erm actualli i cldnt finish 2qns i tink... one qn got part (b) n (c)... well anything ba as long i believe i did my best n passing it i suppose...

Maths -> erm dun tink i cld ever make it for this one but i dun tink ill fail tt badly like 10 out of 100 rite? i mean shld worst case scenario wld be 35 out of 100... tts the worst for me lah... if go any lower that means im a gonecase liao....

Well todae, wed, i dun hav any ppr coz ive oredi taken my elective's ppr last week.... i tink i scored full marks but then again mayb got one or two careless mistakes ba... since it was easy... I shld realli take BIOLOGY related as a diploma.... i understand bio more than anything lor... haiz... sadz... but hey, i cant anyhow dropout since its oredi my end of 2nd yr oredi... soo i cant back out rite? anwayz, my plan was to become a cher soo ill become one with this as a stepping stone i guess...

Tmr's my last ppr and as i stated on 2 post ago that this ppr called FPM (Fluid Particle Mechanics) is the killer which i dunnoe wether more worse than mths or not to me tt is...

wadever it is tmr's ppr will b a killer n ill say tt im a gone case... meanin i oredi got like how many pprs failed oredi inclusive of my class tests...? lets jus say 75%-85% of the entire modules... OMG!!!

well all the best to u all n to me as well... dun wana die like 30%-40% for these module.. fail is can but not less than 35% n ill b content...

A Change of Style?

2007-12-12T09:09:00.001+08:00

Here i am posting abt my blog...
1st thing is that im apologitic abt my blog. coz accidentally had removed the entire layout meaing everything while i was messing with the template...

Lesson learnt -> nvr play with things tt u dunnoe like the html n stuff...
Henceforth, i will oni use default skins available to me by the blogger itself... sadz but im too lazy to learn html codes n etc.

Soo even if plain its okie ba...

To those hu visits here n cant find their links, pls tag ur links... sori abt tt... i oni can remember some of ur blog add... thkz n sorri once again...

Common Test Week For Yr2Sem2

2007-12-09T18:28:00.000+08:00

aloz peepz... busy lah wif juggling my hectic, stressful n yet bore life...

tmr will be the start of the Common Test Wk aka Term exams...
Mon will b RS, Tue EMAC which i soo hate n 4ever soo clueless abt, Wed other got elective but mine over, Thu is FPM paper... the KILLER!!!! for sure!!! Fri got this briefing for nex yr which batch will be goin for attachment etc.

to me... it doesnt affect my choice ba since i cant for sure go for any attachment until i complete my owing of modules to the SCL (C)... hence ill jus go ther to rot okok mayb not entirely true tt ill rot ther... i mean i still can take part by listening as ill b affected onli at a much later date than the rest of the peeps rite?

soo listen gd n remember tts all i can do lor...

then durin the hols wld b all the way wrk, bike pract, goin out but not forgetin the super impt things to do wld b my reports, sem pro and also revise for the upcomin class tests aftr the hols...

YEPZ!!! as all can c, hols arent hols.... it'll nvr be for my life... the oni time i call hols time wld be wen i can jus slack n lax all day long lol without worries, wrkin nor movin arnd tt much... lol... meanin wld be tt my hols wld b the time i relaz n rest up... bfr more hectic turns of events lor... wat else?

mayb im lookin at life in a weird angle but im lookin at all angles and this is one of the many options to choose frm but i tink coz of my personality, i guess tis term wld best describe of how i c life in this kinda angle of life's situation ahahhaha....

of course my situation ba... for wat look at others' wen ur life is more impt than the rest as at the end of life, ur own will b reflected upon and u noe the rest lah...
i dun wan say it as some may think im racist or religionist or wadever lah... its up to wat ppl think n believe in... for me, im jus a mixed up case of a person hu sumting contradicts oneself too many times...

i hope i can pass my RS which is a must since i cant fail again if not i say bb lor.
EMAC - if can pass wif a D ill be soo damn super happy ill b more awake for mths lol...
FPM - wah the killer pprs... plain n dry with many technical stuff n calculations which is 2 of my worse fortes...
if tis one i can pass i shld be grateful n will strt studyin like thers no tmr but like i said hu noes...n fill up the blanks urselves kkz...

since ill b quite free durin the exam wk as i hav to study via lappy n bks since lappy got the slides ba henceforth ill keep an update of things nearli everyday...

kkz... gtg to wrk... comeback home then ill totali snore n wake up earlier to revise RS again... soo stressed up i feel like goin to get admited to the hospital is a great idea... yet ill have to retake a harder ppr if tt happens lol...

WED's 1st Practical Lesson N Orientation...

2007-11-16T03:59:00.000+08:00

hello peepz... Wed was such a great day for me... super duperly exciting and fun!!!

YEAH!!! coz it was the day that i started my practical lessons after the orientation which falls on the same day as well... ahahaha... soo much fun!!! im soo addicted oredi!!!

ADDICTION!!! I wish i could go for the practicals everyday but im financially constraint hence ill jus hav to savour this feelin... ahahaha...

well a gd news to b awarded for me tis mth... yet oso not tt gd lah...

finally gettin a psp, sharing it wif my dad of course, but its the psp slim liao..
modified plus a 4gb stick i tink... hopefully lah... got lobang frm my ex-manager of TPH hus transferred to AMK...

ahahaha... but the nt tt gd news is that i hav to fork out 150 frm my nex pay.. haiz.. and the other part tts gettin me more down would be tt its gona b overseas frm nex wk onwards coz my dad wants to bring it overseas durin his trip... well its mainly his ba... his not using it tt much once he comes back soo tts gd news for me except tt durin the sch hols for pri sch, my bro's gona hog it to himself... since his on hols later n henceforth not much playtime for me...

SADZ but im jus happy to hav a portable player aftr soo long... the price arh? 415 bucks... i noe elsewher sells alot higher... with the modifications and all... i mean plus extra thing like a memory stick is super ex lor...

my nex pract is on sat mornin... haiz n here i am bloggin, jus cant slp lah... got alot on my mine n i need to study my mths soon... shle i strt @ 430am? no idea... lets hope i can last the entire day in sch til herm wat time? 4pm... wah... then i gotta go n buy the psp @ hougang... then wat else arh? herm... i still gotta go n report for wrk @ 7-11pm... then gotta straight go to bed to get myself rested up for praticals on sat mornin... wen reach home? herm... back to bed till super late aftrn appx 2hours bfr wrkin time which most probably b 4pm... then do some revision for RS coz mon got class test... gotta b fully prepared... ill continue the revision on sun then... erm wat else for sun? still gotta prepare for SP4 on tue... lets see wether got spare time or not... if got then gd... during the so called 'spare time', ill jus start my THM revision coz the test on wed...

OMG!!! i jus remembered that tue got make up FPM lecture frm 4-6pm...wah spoil my mood...(thought can do practical lessons) , like tt ill jus stay in sch til 830pm wait for da-jie to end her session...shld use tt time to study for THM test which is more impt than the REE quiz which happens every week...

Lets plan it out for MON,19th
during 4h break, 2h to complete my e-learnin of the REE lab...the last 2modules then im free frm the computer lab!!!
then the nex 2h break i shld use it to revise my RS which will be tested directly aftr my break... then got RS Lab Procedure briefing, and oso RS Tutorial... i better remember to do tt tutorial on sun...
TUE,20th
Aftr sch hours, THM N REE in the library...
@ Home, THM, THM LAB(If still got time)
WED,21st
Aftr sch? most probably go out n play pool wif MARK (NOTE: DUN STAY OUT TOO LATE!!!)
@ home, REVISION TIME!!! (LAB REPORTS)
THU,22nd (the day my parents n bro goes overseas)
-> THM TUTORIAL N LAB REPORT!!! N NOT FORGETTIN MTHS
FRI,23rd
-> SLP N RECUPERATING DAY!!!

the weekends wil hav to wait i guess...

Continued...

2007-11-13T18:50:00.000+08:00

it seems tt im jus a lot tad useless nowadays except for my wrkin part...
Workin is another thing since i cant control wat goes arnd ther since the only part i can decide on is wether to do my job properly and to report to wrk tts all...

i mean wats the worst thing it can happen?
Get SACKED! COMPLAINS! COUNSELLING! PAY THEM PENALTY FINES!
Not forgetting get BLACKLISTED!!!

hey, tts all that can be done ba... i mean seriously... tts life @ wrk...
since im dried, hence wrkin is a must which i hav to report for...
$$3.50/hr not bad rite? i mean its a slackish job, i only need to serve customers which are kinda slow goin frequently and do stocking...
the only time it gets tough is wen the 'flow through' aka 'stock supply' is delivered...
i mean i gotta carry tons of cartons of liquids aka anything tts liquid, snacks, and many things which i dunno wat to call them except products...

n the worst thing tt the delivery did to me is tt its always delivered most of the time @ night bfr i need to go home... meaning more wrk to do bfr i end my shift... DOTS DOTS DOTS!!!

well so far ok ba... i got my neighbour as a colleague but haven wrked together wif him yet.
the oni thing tt irritating me @ my wrkplace is tt, my other 2 colleagues ar givin trouble to the store... its like freakin irritating lor... now my manager got alot of probs wif the store coz of them, like the head of customer service is now givin probs abt customer intimacy... haiz...

well tts my life @ wrk.. stil problematic no matter wher i go rite? sheesh!!!

for academic wise...ppl hu noe me well shld jus stick to their thoughts of reasoning... stating abt my academic life aint gona help me rite now since im in a whirl with social, academic, financial, welfare and family...

til i get to solve n settle @ least 1/2 of the probs then oni then i cld say tt my life's back to normal...

TOTALLY UNDEPENDABLE>>>

2007-11-12T15:45:00.000+08:00

it is totali unfortunate that i have to say this about myself...
n tt is im totally undependable @ the moment sia...
serious ba... i feel soo useless to people... i noe that i try but to them ok ok it may b my own assumptions but surely they got this feeling that i am soo undependable wen needed...

I can oni say that i am soo sorry but i do have my reasons and many unlucky things have been happening... wana noe y for appx. 2 wks i have yet to blogged?
1st. i was totali busy devoting myself to the club activities.
2nd. totali didnt have the time to open up tis page to blog.
3rd. my lappy went KA-PUT!!! last mon... oni got it fixed on sun...
4th. SICK again...

and wif all these events that happened... im seriously need time to tink trhu wats wrong wif me n wat i can do to fix it... haiz...

Feelin better yet still not tt OK...

2007-11-02T11:15:00.000+08:00

Im back in sch, up n runnin... nearli at full operating capabilities...

still not tt OK i guess... since im still down wif flu...
i had to skip Ms Ler's THM lecture on wed mornin coz i totali cldnt come due to some family complications...

had REE class quiz... i tink i scored 8 or 9 out of 10... the qns are quite easy but not anymore for the nex tests tt are to come til the 7th which will b the last hardest... then the final 8th test is easier...

had Club activities aftr tt; formal photo taking(im the poor soul hus takin the photos), meeting, planning.
Aftr tt was pool time wif my god-bros...

Came back home super LATE!!! totali damn tired... went to bed straight after...

Thursday;
had my elective... it was normal ba kinda boring... taught by Ms Diong LS.
then aftrwards... had a 2h break... went back home to settle some stuffs...
met weide bfr goin back to sch...he told me wat happened betweem him n the class which he frgt had (lab briefing) which i dun hav (HMT)...
FPM.. totali clueless... i mean coz i was like fallin asleep wif all the technical wrds...
Mths was aftr tt.. also another clueless moment...

Aftr tt went back home straight n sat infrnt of the com to settle the pics for the excos...
went to do some other things like settling the guests' seating... herm harder then i thought... but shld b able to get it done...mayb durin the weekends...

Now... had maths abt 30mins ago... now break time wif Ms Ler's classes aftrwards... she inside the same classroom as us now while she wait for us to eat finish... im not havin my breaklunch... not in the mood.. the reason... shant tel ani soul...

ahahaha... its jus tt i realli no mood... although my stomach growling a little... im jus in no mood...

many things to do n many things to dwell upon... haiz... busy busy n stressing as well...

i hav to go back to return my dvd rentals ASAP... totali frgt abt it... meanin it slipped my mind... aftr tt go home makan bfr i hav to go do my booking for my 1st practical... aftr tt i guess ill go home n do my REE report n send it to yinxi... wif fixin my printer's networkin n oso search for newspaper article for SP4...

IM JUS PLAIN UNDEPENDABLE @ E MOMENT!!!

Somethings Realli Wrng Wif Me...!!!

2007-10-30T02:13:00.000+08:00

Y am i bloggin soo much abt my poor health? well the answer is super duperly simple... coz its the main prob in my life rite now...

like i said bfr... tis stupid sickness has yet to pass til now... y am i still awake at tis point of time? well for starters, i cant slp til super late... tt means ill fall asleep wen everione strts to wake up... weird rite?
then ill like slp til aftrn around a 10am or so... n amazingly i will slp @ abt 5am or so...
earlier abit oso got but most of the time its aftr 330am...

yepz! sumtings sure is wrng wif me... tts y i cldnt come for mon lessons... im still running a fever that goes on n off... my body is still hotter than it shld b for a recovering person...

anwayz, since i was like totali out of myself, i hav neglected my studies n oso my reports which ar like due later... I totali cldnt repli sms, n msn msgs... coz sms for starters i didnt even noe my hp was on silent, secondly, im not sittin infrnt of the com the whole day n sumore im like lazing on my bed or sumting like gazing on the top board of my bunk bed...

my mind, body n soul are totali out of it i tel ya...
since i cant anyhow take off frm sch, since mon ystrday was a self-claimed MC, i cant afford to dare take another self-claim n sumore i haven submitted my MC for thu n fri... if i delay it anylonger... im in deep trouble... hope yinxi they all hav completed the REE report due later... im left wif the last parts of the report... the discussion n conclusion ba...

how long wil tt take i wunder?
well ill jus try my best at it ba... hope ill b able to finish it up by 330am... tt means an hour lef...
anywayz... if they still haven finalize or anything... ill jus compile it wif theirs n print it out bfr the REE itself lor... tts my oni choice i hav ba...

i hope ill get back on my feet superduperly soon... if not im suffering myself into oblivion... ARGH!!!!!

As Sickly as Before...

2007-10-28T14:15:00.000+08:00

my absence frm sch since thur n mc has yet to help me recover frm tis pathetic sickly state... it seems my body is givin way to this sickness or wadever it is... i jus hope that tis calamity will pass on soon as in this current state, i cant seem to concentrate that well n it puts a great deal of energy into the thing tt i hav to do n wish to do...

i hav reports and many other things to do as well like strtin my revision for the upcomin class tests n so more other things like preparing myself for the upcomin events in my club activities...

Like this, it seems my schedule n plans hav been delayed n i realli am in trouble if these things doesnt go as well as planned... it wld mean more last min wrk which i myself dun like n i dun wish to impose more wrk than i can handle on myself n others around me...

OMG!!!! i jus wish tis stupid thing will realli pass on soon!!!

Am i a Weak Person?

2007-10-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

y am i askin myself tt question is because im like always sick here n ther, more than a normal person shld b...

a few reasons i cld tink abt is because of my lifestyle and stuff tt i do that noone normal wld want to do lah... HEY!!! Dun tink beyond tt limit khoR!!!

anywayz, todae took mc... jus cldnt TAHAN animore!!! i was totali running a fever again... it goes ON n OFF soo many times it makes my head hurts... n mybody oso like soo tired to do much of anything.. had to attend wrk todae no choice... coz if i nvr go no income... since im oni wrkin 1job currently ba... still feelin the same sickly self...

I apologise to those hu expected me to b in sch but i totali cldnt remember i had an appointment or sumting wif u n totali frgt to notify u abt my absence... SORRY!!!

especially to Yamon-NeeChan....

well, i jus cant slp yet hence im bloggin liao...

FINALLY!!!

2007-10-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

herm, if ppl were to read the title everione will totali b puzzled on wat im refering to rite?

well the FINALLI is but sumting ive been wantin to do for an entire mth n tt is to strt my practical lesson 1 for my class 2B... n since i hav the cash oredi, might as well book for the upcomin mth on the days tt im free rite?

soo i tink the 13th Nov, Tue, is a gd day itself since i end sch by 3pm i shld take up the 4+ time slot.. n it seems tt its still open so i tink i better go n book it soon...

for sch todae, nothing much happened xcept for during REE lab since like everything is new n many of us still didnt hav the lab manual wif us which resulted in many of us being totali blur.. hahahaah....

well its a norm sumtimes wif my class... lucki im always wif the bks... strted n ended as blur.. luckily still had help frm our lab lect. all went interestingly ba... nex wk due my 1st lab report... better do this nice nice...

I wan A's to pull my GPA frm a mere passable 2 to abt 3 by end of tis sem? is it possible i sumtimes ask myself... YESH! tts the answer if i get all B n above for all... of course must get A's as well...

*YAWNZ* im feelin slpy... nitez

2nd Wk of Sch

2007-10-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

2dae is the strt of the 2nd week of sch... heres the summary of the day i guess...

Havin a cold since sat nite, got worse on sun but still the same todae... hence i cldnt get up on time for my maths lecture therefore had to miss it coz i was realli feelin 'weak' liao *(tts the oni way i can describe it as so)*...

woke up arnd noon which i felt a little tad better but my running nose was still runnin... went to sch for my 2pm lecture for RS... in the LT, my nose was realli givin way... *(OMG!!!)*

it was a realli sickly feelin, my shoulders n back was givin way as well... i was like tinking... did i slp wrong or wat sia... it realli aches n was painful sia...
then aftr tt lecture went home to get more panadol extra to eat sia... it helped abit i guess...
aftr that i went to sch but bfr tt i stopped by the SSDC to check if there was still space for nex mth to book... frgt i had to cash n was totali blur liao...

apologised to the staff n totali went to sch aftr tt for RS tutorial which i totali swear i frgt sumting serious..

I FRGT IT STARTED EARLIER TODAE!!!! was super 40mins late since i thought the class wld strt @ 640pm sia...

Lucki everything went ok... it ended 30mins earlier... coz most of it still jus learnt hence cant b rushin wen u still blur i guess...

Now my cold is still disturbing me...
Tml sch frm 9-3pm... hope everything will go better...
aftr tt i got dinner date wif my 2 god-bros @ novena...
hope that the (pang-seh the most) wil come...

well not puttin my hopes tt high... oh ya its costing me abt 50-60bucks... well its once a while like in a freaking once in a semester???? its a seafood buffet but i cant say wher since im not tt sure ba... if nice ill bring my other frens ther if u dun mind the price... n if its nice...

tts all for me... i tink i better go thru my sempro coz tmr is sempro n not forgettin to pack my bag... later frgt my lab coat i die sia!!! n oso not forgettin tmr got FPM tutorial straight aftr my SP!!!
ARGH!!!! SOO E FRUSTRATING!!!!

well i tink i better eat panadol to keep myself focused n feelin better abit rite?

RESIGNATION???

2007-10-22T01:16:00.000+08:00

some ppl ar oredi askin me wen im resigning frm my PH part-time job... yesh its true tt i skipped the fri n sat time slot due to some issues tt i hav during the last min timings...

the reasons ar abit tad personal soo i cant say much abt it yet i can say a few or jus a single depends on how u c it ba.. since i dunoe how many i can type out here...

on the day, fri, to b exact... wen i was doin my own ting since i cldnt turn up for my wrk, i totali felt as if im subconsciously gettin further n further away frm tt place, meaning tt i dun feel the sense of belonging ther animore...

mayb coz i feel that i need to conc more on other things especially my studies...

soo hence ive decided to discuss wif my god-bro, closests frens n family members on this particular issue, it seems all agree that if i wana go n tender my resignation they actualli say tt its a greatest decision aftr it was hold off for many many n upteen many times since 3-6mths ago yet i still help onto tt place for wat reason exactly i cant say... many mixed reasons n feelings are present for tt decree of the thought for resignation...during tt time of course...

mayb due to the fact tt most of my 'kaki' 'members' were still ther but now totali changed, left me n cik zila which i cld say aint famiy like... haiz...

'LALA' n 'LiHA' are in their last year within their studies hence i wld say tt they wld prefer to conc n giv more of their time towards their studies of course tt wld b the natural course of decisions n events rite?

meanin, im left alone... cik zila is oredi busy ba... she oso got a family to take care off wif her husband's freelance job n stuff as well... n wats lef of my initial family ther? basicly oni me will b left...

yesh thers my managers ther but wats lef is INDAH hu isnt actualli the same time period as my family but she's close enuff...since many of my members are oredi gone, i feel no attachment to tt place n no mood to wrk without much motivation if most of the time im going to b doing most of the wrk like an overwrked employee slave...

haiz... finalli some of my innermost feelings surfaced... wadever lah... wat i said is true.. if they dun like it tt fine wif me but its true tt im overwrked n underpaid yet i still oni giv the complain of a little tired but i nvr did complain on how much i disliked it...

complaining is human nature but hating sumting is superhard unless u realli force them to a person hu oredi dislikes it... yet u make him or her dislike it to the core til it is classified as hatred...

tryin to make it clear to ppl... i am happy n fortunate tt i got to wrk ther but i guess i hav to move on in life to experience new things n i realli feel my attachment n bonds to tt place weakening by the thrust of time tt slowly cuts away that thin line...

Commitments?

2007-10-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

sum of my frens which ar not within my poly but elsewher ar askin me wats my commitments for tis current semester...

Commitments??? i ask them... herm i guess i got a few @ hand oredi yet i can say tt im unsure on how to juggle them rite now since everything jus strted rite... n its still too earli to plan out a nice time management for myself...

herm, ill state a few of my commitments which is a sure DIE DIE to juggle...
1. Academics aka sch stuff...
2. Part-time wrk...
3. Social Life aka goin out wif frens...
4. Family
5. Personal Needs...

for those hu ar wundering y i decided to drop my candidacy for EXCO for SCL CLUB, heres a few reason;
1. repeating modules --> need more time to spend on those modules that ar reapeatin cum super weak if not i wouldnt hav failed rite?
2. juggling new part-time wrk wif sch --> new job with lower pay hence need to wrk abit more to earn the same amnt as bfr...
3. academicly decline --> need to conc. more on my academics, dun wan b 'too' distracted...
4. need time to socialize wif frens within NYP n outside as well...
5. Sum internal personal issues as well...
n etc.. which doesnt seem tt impt...

1st Week Of Sch In NYP

2007-10-18T08:16:00.000+08:00

Since im awake earlier than im supposed to might as well use tis time to blog abt the 3days tt have passed since the new sch semester started rite?

As i said in my previous entry, mon was a hell of a timetable for me than my other classmates as i had to take up my repeat module, RS. The module stretched throughout the entire aftrn til nite... with the lectures, lab then followed by the nite tutorial sessions... of course thers no lab til wk 4 of the sch term which is gona b briefing anywayz...

ya i dun wana preach abt tt day coz im still not used to it ba... anywayz FYI, those hu hav nite classes, the nex day is an off day but im different since im an XTRA... it doesnt matter oni jus abit tiring for me...

Tue, was pretty much another usual day but oni 2hours long as we oni had to attend Semestral Project or SemPro for short aka SP...
Our supervisor in charge is the CPT Course Manager/Coordinator, Mr Tan Beng San...

Our grps n project tittles were randomly picked using lots... Haiz... Im with Peishan n Zhaozhen... Hope i ok wif them...

i jus hav to b myself, no? okok i take tt back... i shld jus b my wanting to b self... coz if i were to b myself i tink the entire project will b chaos for me coz u noe im tryin to change my ways n stuff soo gotta try to b tt new type rite? hehez...

oh ya... mon was oso maths lecture in the 1st 2hours time slot frm 8am-10am... wah i tell u... i dun understand a ting... That jus prove tt im totali oblivious of maths!!! DANGER!!! DANGER!!! wah like tis im reali in trouble...

WED, jus had to attend THM n REE lectures... by adeline ler n allen liu respectively...

ok lah.. but i cant absorb all of it since im totali like wanting to fall asleep but hey i didnt... soo like GD job to myself... ahahaha... its a great step...

well 2dae is thu hence i have lectures all the way wif my new elective module called appreciation of life sciences... n interestingly my lecturer is my club advisor from the LS side... then the last hour is mths again... haiz i hope i understand better... anywayz, the most interesting part abt it is i understood the easier part of the things he taught... is tt gd or bad? n tmr is my tutorial but he still haven told us wat to do for tutorial since we dun hav a study plan for this current sem's maths...

oh ya i oso gotta do quite a few planning here n ther for the club upcoming Commissioning of the new ExCo... im in-charge of welfare... gotta do the floor plan for the seating area n stuff... haiz... it tink i gotta finish it by tonite i tink soo tt means i gotta pull a late-niter preferbly til abt 2am arnd ther like last nite i had to plan my own wrkin days n such...

oso tryin to organize my life aftr sch wif wrk cum social cum family... ahahah...

well tts all frm me since i tink i gtg get ready for sch soon... hehez... cya

HARI RAYA AIDILFILTRI

2007-10-18T02:10:00.000+08:00

AHAHAHAHHAHA!!!! i nearli n totali super duperly frgt abt HARI RAYA tt jus passed last saturday ahahaha... ya its my festive season... which supposedly ends within a mth's time

however it seems i totali gave up tt celebrating mood the nex day... well coz sun i was to wrk mornin shift, and then the nex day i was to hav lessons in sch which strts in the freakishly mon blue's mornin from 8am til nitey-nite 830pm...
haiz...

i had to bear alot of the breaks in between sia... i wen back home twice to waste the time away sia... cldnt stand the waitin time without havin much of anything to do hands on while waitin.... well tts all for the hari raya issue...

Y i dun feel the joyous occasion? mayb coz im too matured for my own gd? im not small anymore hence not alot of ppl wil gimme the packets bah since most of them will tink im like wat? 20++ yrs old?

*OUCH!!!* i feel old wen they tink tt way!!! hey!!! im still 18 ok... jus 18 yrs old on the 17th of sept... not even 1mth yet until okok wed oredi 1mth due... ahahaha.... ill post sum of my hari raya pics tt i took of my family n myself in it... ENJOY!!!

a fresh strt?

2007-10-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

1st tings 1st i guess...
i have been truly unimaginably busy wif myself alot since aftr the exams n all coz im totali wrkin my butt off, as well as tryin to hav more bonding sessions wif my god-bros frm sec sch...

it was a totali weird hols i would hav to say wif many unexpected turn of events in my life i guess...

abt academics i wld say i guessed that it would eventualli hav to come to this kind of setting as i hav oredi foretold it in the middle of last semester...
some say im pyschic however, i defer to tt statement, one must noe one's own limit, no? tts where i used to confirm my prediction... yes although it contridicts sum other ppls' point of view abt tis matter that i said is becoz sum believe even if it has been predicted, u can still change the outcome of it if u try to change the present at that time wen it was predicted...

i agree that its contradictive but im the type tt once predict sumting its hard for me to change myself... but during the hols, i hav oredi went to find new enlightenment or somesort to chnge tis habit of mine bah...

soo i hope tis sem i hav a better life in juggling my time management ba... haiz...

anwayz, im now juggling 2 jobs while schling.. the reason y arh? a chnge of environment n oso gainin more experience in life...
NOT FORGETTING: TRAININ TO B INDEPENDENT EARLIER!!!

wat jobs i hav now? FULL TIME STUDENT, PART-TIME Pizza Hut Staff (BOH N FOH), PART-TIME 7-11 Staff...

currently im more concentrated in wrkin @ 7-11, ya i noe the pay lower than PH but hey its an easier job i mean slackin abit lah... of course got wrk to do still like wen stock come tts wher i come in, the guy hu has to carry the stock up to the storeroom lolz... the oni guy in the outlet leh...

well for PH, i tink i plan to resign by the end of the yr or soo i plan tt is...
will c how it goes ba... anywayz... i jus need the cash to save up pay up sch misc. stuff n oso save up for presents for ppls' bdaes as well as my bro's upcomin bdae nex yr... he wans sumting soo EX!!! n i oso still haven strted wif my Class 2B pratical lessons... oh ya, i PASSED on my 1st attempt for the RTT (Riding Theory Test) last fri... ahhaha....

ill blog more tmr aftr my wrk abt sch life in the 1st wk of sem4 in NYP SCL CPT...

My Off Day...

2007-09-05T11:46:00.000+08:00

todae's my off day... well its oni 2 days ago was oso my off day on sun coz it was more towards like a family day out ba tts y i need an off day on sun...

erm todae's plans all have been altered till i wana b slackin @ home but i tink not i guess...

1stly, my god-bro's plan was cancelled yesterday coz a clash in plans wen we confirmed for todae... but i dun mind lor... meanin more sleeping time but instead it made me sleep late tis mornin @ 245am...

was jus surfing the net i guess... playin boring online games...

well later will b meetin up wif yamon to get some of my finances back which initial meetin point was @ suntec however we changed it to Harbourfront dunnoe y though... well i dun care tt much coz i totali haven gone ther for quite sum time mayb a long time...

erm well the NLB trip will hav to depend since i totali dunoe wether ill hav the mood to go ther or not since buses sumtimes ar jus troublesome u noe wen u dunoe which or wat to take frm tis particular place to get to ur desired destination ba...

craving to play new ps2 games... but short on cash anywayz... to buy them tt is...
haiz... y must life b soo expensive? pirated games oso still ex... wish everything okok mayb a few things here n ther should b cheap or better, FREE!!! like downloading is free n no IP issues u noe... haiz mayb in the far far reaches of the future wher this type of things mayb lah....

coz now ppl think soo futuristic in the movies n other stuff yet tis type of issues ar still goin on or more crazy is jus started a war like type like jus recently a few wks ago wld b tt court case abt the anime vcd distributor in SG... cant say lor... since i dun wan anything happenin to me ba... but generally speaking they ar not the company hu has the copyright rights ba since most anime copyright belongs to companies in US...

i wonder y JAPAN allow soo many ppl to dl still? i mean u notice they ar soo free in dling mp3 on their mobile... @ least not the whole album lah but still no dling issues rite? i wish i was a Japanese @ times but their standard of livin n quality of life is jus damn too high for me ... i mean im financially nearli broke n still a struggling student rite... soo if i were to b living ther, my finances wld most probably b in debts... but i do appreciate their cultures, anime, mangas n many more as i do wif sum other countries n my own tt is... but its nice to learn abt others ba...

well i tink tts all frm me til i come home ba... soo cya nex post...

the boring plans soo far...

2007-09-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

okiez... continueing frm my last post ya...
i plan to go to the national library on my upcomin off day frm wrk to look up books on psychology n stuff lah... quite interesting to learn abt the brain n humans...

herm i make myself sound soo 'ALIEN' sumtimes but hey thats y ther ar ppl like shrinks n stuff coz they're like aliens lolsz... i hope anyone of u aiming to b any of them dun take tis to heart ya... jus jokin... hu noes i may change my career prospects n aim for being a psychologist ahahaha... mayb in the nex life if thers one ba...

okok back to the topic @ hand... erm off day on wed... i plan go out wif my god-bro 'mark' to play k-pool @ amk ther then i gotta meet up wif Yamon @ town area more specific tt i set up the time n place is 230pm @ suntec city... herm on wed lor... but SUNTEC is soo BIG!!! wher am i to wait for her i wonder??? y must i meet up wif her? well i gotta claim back the money i spent on the RDC for the SCL Club rite? hey im a nice guy n all but money aint tt easy to part especially wen the sum is over 20bucks kkz...

i noe i tend to blanja ppl alot of times nearli the sum to 20bucks but above tt i prefer to get it back bah since im on hard financial times myself... soo many things i wana buy n stuff... haiz troubled financially but gotta b independent n earn it back mah... soo tts y im back @ wrk @ Thomson Plaza's Pizza Hut...

Y am i back ther? tts a gd qn if i say so myself since i soo badly wanted to go for those 7-11 or Cheers type but i find myself hard to leave tt place since its like soo hard to say gdbye to those i luv n care down ther since short of staff again n my RM [restaurant manager] is heard to b resigning aftr the end of the mth of sept... Finalli she leavin yet i dun feel tt happy aftr all she is a nice person wen she keeps quiet tt is lolz... wen she open her mouth, all hell break loose...

cant tahan her mouth tts all... she open or disturb us in anyway... i tell u khor sure die!!! she make suay everiting then blame us wen its her fault... she tends to 'gabra' or 'kan chiong' then force us to b the same then all go wrong find fault wif us...

2dae was ok except ther ar sum issues within the outlet tt i wish cld b solved of easily but tts like quite diff lah... i mean the staff issues n oso the erm... well to me thers oni staff issues to b the problem rite now...

being MIA has gd points yet oso bad lah... its gd to noe ppl miss ya... yet its not gd if ur missing on the gossips n happenings... im still blur abt the situation of my dear colleagues @ wrk...

okok back to plannin... erm well aftr meetin wif yamon i guess go jalan2 arnd suntec lor... aftr tt if got mood go to NLB to check up on those books... herm teen time management wld b oso gd or jus to chnge oneself help guide wld b super duperly helpful...

i sound soo despo in chngin myself sia... well its my life n i wish it could b more meaningful yet beneficial as much as possible ba...

well the anime of Ouran High Host Club taught me afew lessons abt life... well it helps in some cases yet i dun wan to b a guy hus bound by the worldly affairs of teens oni bah.. i wana b involves in a bigger worldly way!!!

hence gotta strt tinkin n plannin on how my life can aim towards such a dream...
Dreams ar but jus dreams... they can oni become reality if u realli aim towards it n follow them til the end... yet there ar chances wher u fail... its a gamble yet its oso a game... hence life ur life to wat u wish it to b... control ur fate if not ur destiny....

ill continue postin alot of crap nex time lah... sleepy liaoz....

nitez

Hols strted... Wat am i gona do i wonder?

2007-08-31T01:06:00.001+08:00

herm the hols strted jus recently officially for my side ystrday lor...

hows the exams if u might ask? herm dunwana say much abt it lah... im happy tt my nightmares ar ovr... u noe i keep tryin yet its super duperly difficult to change my way of things i guess its human nature..

its possible but its difficult lor... herm i need to read up bks more abt how the brain wrks lah soo i can chnge myself faster to a better person... hey dun tink otherwise of the wrk better person... im referin to my life of academics n family n oso my wrkin life... its a complicated life i lead wif many things to juggle yet not alot of ppl noe wat is it actualli tt im referin to but hey i nvr asked abt urs rite? coz certain tings ar jus meant for the ear's of the wall infrnt of u wen ur alone to disclose coz the wall is a better listener than anyone though the negative things wld b tt it can nvr reply u...

LOLZZZ!!! ahahahaha....

well i came back frm wrk reachin home abt 1215am lor... ya abt an hour ago bfr i post tis... it was ok lah aftr bein MIA for abt 1mth ++...due to commitment towards my academic life... everione was like askin each other wat happen to me? while i was MIA... wether i was like sulkin tt i dunwana wrk animore or other things lah... well everione todae looked happy tt i can wrk again but i told them till end of the hols oni lor... coz wen sch reopen i wunt noe wat life will hav for me i mean the complications n everitin else ba...

haiz got alot of things goin on in my head n im oredi feelin super sleepy... haiz.. goin to bed in a few mins...

ill continue postin aftr wrk tmr lor... i mean the nex mornin on sat mornin tt is... ahahah... nitez ppl

1 more ppr to go [Reactor System]

2007-08-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

my last ppr is on wed lah... ya... last ppr which is also my worst module... soo far, i guess 1st bfr mths...

Reactor system aint my thing... ive neither been great or ok wif mths nor engineering stuff... i prefer science totally yet since im in tis course n i cant do notin to chnge it hence gotta live wif it...

Aftr wed's ppr is like boredom til results day comes out which i tink im jus gona freak it out like mad since i totali noe how stupid im rite now... haiz...

y am i sayin its totali gona b boredom durin the hols? ill tell u here n now...
1. coz im jus gona b workin til end of the hols...[ notin great rite?]
2. coz fastin mth strt in mid sept all the way to bfr sch strts again [hope ill still b in nyp ba]
3. notin great planned out for the hols except to apply for class 2B license... [which is the reason y i need to wrk wil bored to pay for the classes ba]
4. i got alot of self-reflecting to do durin this period to tink abt wat im gona b doin, wat to do and majorly think abt the direction i want to pave my own path...

well i gtg pplz... i got religious class to attend sumore... haiz...

Semestral Exams

2007-08-19T22:23:00.001+08:00

aologies for not bloggin since then, main reasons wld b busy wif the common tests, reports, presentation n project...

well aftr those ar done i wasnt able to get online most of the time... n im too engrossed in tryin to pass for the exams tts all i guess...

ALL E BEST 2 ALL n GD LUCK 4 THE SEMESTRAL EXAMS KKZ...

Exams have strated!!!

2007-08-02T09:15:00.000+08:00

well ystrday was my Cost Accounting test and i totali dunnoe wat happened inside the LT totali!!!

made alot of careless mistake and cldnt finish the paper OMG!!! well i hope overall grade wld b a B and ill still b happy...

To me rite now, if i can get all my grades to b a C and above ill b damn super happy... Coz i noe im a slacker, in-born, and that im not tt academicly excelled person type u noe... Hence, i tend to take things too easy and not bother by it. Since, tis sem is the strt of Yr2 ba, the modules are damn hard and frustrating... I dun understand most of it... soo even if i wrk hard, i noe i aint able to score coz ive never have scored in anything as of yet. So if a PASS, D, is wat i get its better than gettin a FAIL and REPEATING the module again coz i dun like the way it is...

My EMAC aka maths which i hav to repeat tis sem was like totali diff frm last sem coz the syllabus changed again unlike last sem which was much easier considered coz bfr i the sem strted, i oredi revised 'Some', super little lah.. Tis sem those things that wasnt covered last sem totali blew me off... Its like not repeatin the module lor, its like a new module all over...

Thats Y im gona work hard for my Exams... Tmr is A-Chem test, and i hope i can manage to memorize and totali understand tt module by tonite...

Oh ya, i got lesson @ 1pm for BPA tutorial... nearli frgt... hav to hand in the excel assignment by tis wk... nearli frgt abt it.. haven touch though, ystrday suppose to strt aftr the test but damn too tired, went to bed earli and like jus woke up to blog... wakakak...

I find myself too weird for my ownself to handle sumtimes... But im me n jus me soo i tink i shld jus accept my ownself.
Am i jus too phylosophical and pychological @ times? ok mayb too many times...
mayb i shld change course lah... tts wat my fren told me to do but too bad lah... im stuck here in NYP CPT... i dun love it nor do i hate it... but i dun wana leave here coz i got frens that i wana b with... ther ar a great bunch of ppl kk... if i werent here, then i wouldnt hav met them n mayb elsewher i wldnt even hav met tis type of ppl u noe...

Thats all frm me folks, Jia You!!!

Lets the tiredness continue...

2007-07-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

ok i got back hm abt 715pm and ate my dinner... lay on bed while daydreamin til now... n now its bloggin time bfr i hav to get it down back to doin my assignments, reports, project and others...

Im havin a cravin for ice-cream... luckily bought a tub oredi... gona eat it all by big'o'self...

Mayb its the oni way to keep myself happy n self eluding...

Like wat the headin said, the tiredness will continue til the exams ar over... as most of u all noe... im a slacker... but i do try my best wen the time calls for it k...

soo since the time is nearli here, tis sem is alot diff coz the modules ar super hard, well compared to nex sem tis sem is abit easier k... well gotta chiong all of it since im jus plain all slackerz n i realli am behind the class... haiz...

tts all for me for now... JIA YOU!!! GO GO GO!!!

Is it me or Is it jus me?

2007-07-30T14:51:00.000+08:00

i tink its jus me... Im subconsciously denying n stayin away frm my grp members... its sumting that i wish i cld do sumting abt but i dun tink im able to anytime soon...

Coz well, it seems that if i were to join them, ill totali feel akward like TOTALLY!!! coz the vibes they giv and the way they do tings aint my liking.. im not tryin to b rude or anything kkz... its jus tt i cant work in such an environment... y u ask?

well ther ar sumtings that prevent me frm concentrating wen im wif them... mayb coz of the grp of frens i hang out n the way we tink ar totali diff ba

it seems that they ar nearli done wif the excel whereas im like still stuck @ 25-35% production for the project doin it by myself...

My frens hav oredi called me weird as they stated that i mdoin it myself while my grp members ar oso doin it...

Ther ar tings that ive experience in life that others maynot ba... Those things made me hu i am n i learn frm them... Thus my actions ar so due to those experiences n things...

Am i to force myself in such a state wher my mood ar totali swingin uncontrollably unstable...
Its like adding more fuel to the flame thats oredi big...!!!
Thus its like total chaos within my own state of being!!!

Haiz... i jus wish i cld jus get it done n over wif... Pls sumone kill me n resurrect me another time... like aftr the exams...

In sch chiongin...

2007-07-30T14:04:00.000+08:00

yupz... im in sch rite now chiongin my SemPro project which cldnt get tt much help frm others coz its either ther ar not arnd n well they ar busy...

tryin my best to remember n put it down on my excel sheet wat i saw on elvi's one... but oni cld remember @ least half of the 1st page oni... well i oni did hav the chance to look @ its 1st page...

I cld actualli go home rite now make it frm 11am onwards coz i dun hav any other lessons unlike my frens... since they're arnd might as well stick around as much as possible even though they may not b able to help me tt much...

well gotta go back to doin SemPro

SemPro Probs?!?!?!?!

2007-07-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

it seems that sempro is realli givin me alot of probs... coz i realli dunnoe how to do it sia...!!!
i hope tmr i can figure out how to strt properly... todae i can oni configure wat i can on the excel spreadsheet makin @ least 60-65% of the whole spreadsheet automated wen the values changes...

I confirmed wif sum others that the report is dued on tue... That means i gotta finish the report plus the claculations by tmr nite... That aint alot of time... PIC's log bk is still yet to b touched... PIC report jus lef to b printed out again... Finished studyin CA but im sure ill forget most of it soon enuff if i dun recap everyday...

Gotta plan it out realli quick... MAJOR BRAINSTORMING ahead!!!

Hope tmr durin sch hours ill chiong wif elvi,ta-jie n weide's grp coz they noe more than me bah... their gpa all above 3.5 i tink... well better than a 2.19 gpa scoring guy like me rite?

Well i tink i better strt doin some PIC log bk entry...

Gona chiong all the way!!! My mood is totali oscillating like crazy!!!

2007-07-29T14:15:00.000+08:00

It seems that the days hav oredi cut short & the exam wk is comin like nex wk onwards... I feel the pressure as ive been slackin most of the time... My assignments, reports and also project is comin to its due date and ive not even completed half of each criteria per task...

I plan to chiong all the way for my Sempro report cum project aftr i get back frm lunch outside... Wen tt'll b? Aftr bloggin n lunch bah...

I aint complainin abt tis issue: (Am i doin the Sempro myself?)
It seems im doin it alone for the timebeing coz my grp members hav yet to tell me any instructions or contacted me... I noe i shld ask them abt it even if they nvr did contact me abt it...(shld b takin initiative) But im busy myself too... N my hp is like not wif me... Huever contacts me frm sat til todae aint gona get thru n i wunt noe coz my hp aint wif me... AKA its not functionin... n i dun seem to b able to come online most of the time... Tmr lessons strt @ 9am soo tt means i can slp later than usual abit lah tonite...

N thers no AC lessons @ 3pm soo i tt means i got more time aftr sch to chiong my Sempro... the qn tt i hav is wether Sempro report hav to b dued by end of nex wk or tue's sempro period?

Tinkin too much has caused me to hav migraine again... anywayz i haven been able to sleep well... n its makin me cranky all over sia... MY body ACHES!!!

Ystrday i didnt had the mood to go to wrk... Cldnt bother coz totali not feelin well wif a migraine... Didnt go to doc... aint hav the cash lah... im a poor soul kkz... tryin to keep my mood swings frm oscillating too much... Appetite has increased 3x I cld say okiez mayb abt 2.5X...
i hav cravings to eat a tub of icecream but since im short of cash i jus cant go arnd buyin a tub n eat the whole thing down... i oni hav 10bucks for the entire week lef... omg!!! feel like cryin!!!

Haiz, ystrday my mood was totali swinging uncontrolably unstable...
Am i gona go crazy? i ask myself tt every hour lolz...
Mayb?

Tryin my best to stay on the track to complete my sch stuff ya... All the best to me..

JIA YOU!!!

Procrastinating myself?

2007-07-26T07:52:00.000+08:00

My apologies for not bloggin for quite a while... alot of things have been happenin negatively towards my life ALOT! I noe i can neither blame on sumone nor on sumtings thus all i can say is tt its jus alot of mishaps n misfortunes for me tis wk.

I learned a new wrd frm my fren ystrdynite... the word is procrastinating if im not mistaken... it seems tt the meanin is rottin oneself away...

Well i hav to agree to tt term coz i am rottin myself away...
The days to the exam wk is like super duperly short...
The exam wk starts like nex wk and all i can say is tt im still not motivated as well as i want to b
With production speed and drive @ such a low gear... My workload seems like forever alot n not movin... Hope todae wld b a better day coz i realli gotta strt doin the work tt i hav coz most of them ar due super soon...

It seems like i hav to skip another class on SUN... coz i realli gotta CHIONG on my weekends to finish up wat i need to do... Too bad my sat aftrn is occupied by my part-time... Its not my caterin but my PH job...

I dunnoe how its been down ther... All i can say is tt i dun bother as sch n academics stuff comes 1st n tt i realli gotta try sumways to make myself focus on wat i need to do n if possible keep it tt way...

All that im doin now is more towards rottin away. My projects have yet to even form any shape... its still in a draft system n i dun wana noe wat'll happen to it if i realli dun move my butt...

Is procrastinating myself all i can do for now???

Tryin to get motivated...

2007-07-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

it seems the days til exam mth is endin nex wk...
yet it seems like im soo unmotivated tt since ystrdy, i came back home n totali hit the hay...

my body n mind feels soo damn tired lately... is it because of my mood swings or other things such as sch stuffs n the time frame crisis? OR all of the above plus others...?

todae aftr sch, had to reach home quickly to eat lunch, then go discharge my dad frm hospital.
Reached home n totali hit the hay again for which woke up n ate dinner n now bloggin aftr some chattin wif my sec sch fren. it feels great to tok to them... catchin up on the lost times i guess..

my mood todae is the sian type... felt better aftr wakin up but feel iritated by my bro... soo disturbing... now i noe y i like to slp aftr i come back frm sch... to avoid contact wif him... mayb ba?

well exams ar arnd the corner yet i still got alot of assignments, reports, n my major sem pro with its project based report, reflection, presentations n alot of excel workings to do for the report n lets sum it all is tt excel is covering mainly most of the entire proj...

haiz... alot of wrk yet soo little time...
plan to get the overview n some plannin down on pencil n paper aka draft by tonite...
tmr got caterin in the evenin n oso on sun morn til abt 6pm.

tmr is A-chem research n oso Excel for SemPro... bfr caterin job tt is... 5/hr not bad rite? meanin 2days im earnin abt 50buck? well better than my PH job i guess 4/hr yet more strainious...

but caterin job oso strainious but more towards the legs...
i mean i stand @ PH alot soo kinda used to it but its still a pain bah... erm i tink more pain to the legs for caterin job coz hav to walk to the kitchen is like further away than the event hall soo quite a longer walk than PH coz im in the kitchen n even if i run oso cant run long distance...

well tts all frm me todae... Gotta keep tellin myself JIA YOU to get motivated...

PS: JIA YOU !!! to my frens oso...

A Week that's aint a good one nor bad...

2007-07-18T09:30:00.001+08:00

It seems that many not good things ar happenin in my life tis wk.

MON- i was sick since fri with a super headache. went 2 doc to check it out on mon. Migraine totali. Bought the super EX medicine n some other. Now feelin better. Heachaches are nearli all gone.

TUE- @ abt 3am, my dad was sent to the Changi Hospital frm wrk coz of a sickness. Admitted to the hospital. Had a totali boring day in sch n hospital.

WED- Now in sch, didnt noe that ther was no A-Chem Lecture. Ms Diong came to find Elvi-jie 2 change the lab timetable coz of clash wif the Common Test Timetable... I assume todae will oso b a dull day for me coz im still feelin unwell. N i dun hav the energy in me to do much of anything todae...

Well its neither a good nor a bad week. Its jus a SIANZ week to me... My life is jus detiorating as the days countdown to the exams...

This week is exactly 2mths away frm my bdae... Is that the cause of my MOOD SWINGS...???

I feel veri negative abt myself with each passing day. Dunnoe y but its like tt... The feelings ar swingin but most of them ar negative... The only time wen i feel positive is wen i jus lay on the bed n look up upon my bed's ceiling...

Is that the oni thing tt can make me feel better? Mayb i shld jus laz the day away but the time n the urgency abt the exams aint lettin me to do so. Realli gotta plan all tis out soon... If not im in deep waters that ar freezin cold that could freeze me in it n it will lead to more complications for me in my miserable lost life...

Y am i sayin soo much negative things abt myself? well im feelin disgusted wif myself... I jus wish my happy-go-lucky, positive, crazily n looney, idiotic me wld jus return ASAP... I miss myself... sarcasm n irony haiz...

Im not in gd health...

2007-07-16T07:31:00.000+08:00

Gd mornin ppl, it seems its not a great mornin for me aftr all...
My heachache tt i had since fri has yet to fade away...
Soo i tink its best to check it out before it gets worse since the exams n presentations are jus around the corner...So ill b headin for the doc once it opens...

My CT will strt in Week 16 aint tt like 2 more wks... With my elective module up front on wed...

Am i jus too overworked, overstressed or jus plain worried abt things too much? or all of them?
Its great to hear most of my frens ar copin well, im happy for them yet im abit disgusted @ myself...

Y am i feelin so? mayb its tt time of year wen my feelings oppose wat i wan them? mayb coz its 2mths bfr my bdae tis wk...
Tokin abt bdae, tis yr's falls on the fastin mth soo i plan to celebrate it wif frens n members in advance... but its difficult to plan it out since Exams ar jus bfr tt... Haiz, its either ther will b or not... it totali depends on the time i hav sia...

Well im goin to bed for another hour bfr i head out to the doc's...

APOLOGIES YET AGAIN!!!

2007-07-15T18:33:00.001+08:00

okok im now uploadin the pics... kinda late make it super late...
soo for tt i apologise to those hu wans the pics frm me...

It has been jus a super-damn forsaken 3days worth of SUAY-NESS!!! frm thu til sat...

ill post abt it later lah... now need to upload abt alot of pics...

LATERZ =P

Thu's Series of Unfortunate Events... n Apologies

2007-07-13T11:45:00.001+08:00

It seem that thu is an unfortunate day full of unfortunate events for me n my frens... Sum really had a bad experiencing day wif soo many SUAY things happenin to them...

For me, i too had a few unfortunate events but not to such a degree as my frens... mayb one lah...

In the mornin, i was suppose to go n buy sweets @ 7-11 but unconsciously i walked pass 2 7-11 n totali frgt to stop til i reached CHEERS. No choice soo i jus went in to get sum sweets...
I went in, grabbed some candy n paid... I didnt notice that those candies tt i bought had GELATIN in it!!! OMG!!! wen i reached sch, i was sharing wif my frens, n i too was chewing onto it, alot of it... OMG!!! i didnt notice it til end of lesson wen i was like swearing n cursing myself...
I gav up the candies totali to my frens beside me...

I dare not eat candies til end of the wk lah...

Aftr sch, [NOTE: This is not directed to anione or anything, if u feel ur the reason y i felt tt way then dun! it was jus a feelin @ tt moment!] in the train, everione was on their way to sumwher no? while i was standing there, ppl were tokin near to me. They were tokin abt academic stuffs n how 'sum ppl' are doin... wether they were doing poorly or not n tt they expect some of them to do otherwise...

I mean to me as long it doesnt hav my name in the conversation or directed to me i dun mind a single bit but its a topic tt i dun like to hear coz im self aware @ this point of time aftr the exams about my status...
Its the satus about my studies. academics n results n how ppl c myself doing... I HATE TO B RATED although tt conversation was not directed to me but indirectly it was affecting me...

Dun sum of u feel tt way sumtimes? I was pissed off n wen the train stopped @ Yishun which is my stop, i totali rushed out of the train leaving my frens n down the escalator, out the station n totali zoomed straight to the interchnge to hop on my bus n home sweet home.

My mum noticed i was in a foul mood wen she met me @ the lift lobby n greeted me, i was jus too pissed to open my mouth, afraid tt vulgarities might fly out... Reached home, ate n relaz to rid off tt negative foul feelin... My dad exchange his nokia 6280 wif me as he was using the PDA which was meant for me but i dun wan it coz it was abit sucky to me... soo i rather get the NOKIA...

I was feelin soo damn tired n negative tt i chose to slp tt whole events in my head... I thought i cld wake up @ abt 10pm to do sum revision, blog n upload the pics but i cldnt wake up til tis mornin... Notice tt Jun Yi lef a msg for me on msn... frgt tt i lef it ther as away...

Soo here i am to apologize to those hu was waitin for the uploads of pics... i sure will msg or msn u all or u can check my blog pics' links for the pics n dl them...

thers alot of pics to upload for me coz my sec sch frens oso wan the sec sch pics tt i hav n i hav to upload all of the poly pics i hav since...

Tts alot of uploading to do but ill do tt onli aftr my movie Transformers ends @ GV YISHUN later tonite... OOooOO i frgt i hav to wrk full shift tmr... soo gotta slp earli later.. haiz... HOPE i can stay up longer to finish all of the wrk i planned for todae..

LATERZ =P

SCL DInner Meet On Wed...

2007-07-12T12:22:00.000+08:00

The dinner meet was full of fun however the 1st part wasnt... ahahaha...

For me, i ended sch @ 3pm, rushed home to change n u noe drop the load of sch materials frm my shoulders...
Had to meet up wif Xiaobin N Suan @ AMK MRT station
Xiaobin was late as usual
Took the train together to Dhoby Ghaut n took NEL to Clarke Quay station.
Waited for the rest ther...
Got lost @ Clarke Quay lookin 4 the restaurant... Took a long LOST walk @ Clarke Quay the main area.
Called for directions frm the restaurant but cldnt understand most of wat they were tryin to say due to their strong Indian Punching Accent.
OK.. finalli reached the place abt erm 645-7pm? Lucky we got ther earli coz by the time we all sat down n strtin to eat, the crowd started to come in...

The food was nice n soo is the price... $16 per head + gst oredi n its buffet style...
I ate onli 1 serving... most of the other guys went for another serving or more... for me i gulped myself down wif soo many glasses of water that i lost count...

The desserts were damn sweet! lucki im quite the sweet tooth but it was jus plain too sweet... i oni cld eat 5 of those little ball thingys before it killed me... KILLER SWEET HONEYED BALS...ahaha hey dun tink perv khor... its food kkz...

Took snaps of pics n tok n chatted makin the whole place noisy... although most of the noise not frm us tt much.
Aftrwards, paid the bill n went to wher? 'Esplanade?'
we actualli went to walk @ clarke quay again before deciding wher to go... ahaha... walked thru the water fountain area... took a pic in the middle n walked off... ahahaha...

Meena-chan was scared kena sprayed by the water as sum of it like shoots up unknowingly soo luckily no shooting up of any @ tt time...
The night scenery was nice, actualli i went ther like in April i tink... soo it was a great refreshing scenery lah

Ok then we went to walk to esplanade frm ther but ended u sittin @ the Supreme Court stairs ther n chatted like crazy.... talked n crapped abt sch, reports n many more things although soo many times i didnt want to hear abt sch tt day but the funnu thing was the prank call to Meena-chan's bro, Sairam... LOL

FUNNY!!!

oh ya, while sittin ther, we waved @ tourists' bus n some waved back... Police car passed by slowly n looked @ us but they cant do anything ba coz hu would illegal gather @ the supreme court wher its of the HIGHEST LAW!!! ahahaha funny sia... okok wen time to go back, i planned to hail a cab coz oredi reaching my so called curfew time limit... wah soo long wait sia...

i was wif suan n xiaobin... waited soo long which by the time most of them reached home oredi.... had no choice but to call a cab... finalli got one of course booked mah... then home sweet home without standing or walkin tt much hehez...

Sent xiaomei, then me n then suan is last...

Reached home abt 12am around ther... my dad was watchin blade trinity the endin part... haiz i oso watched till 1230am wen i remembered abt the research part... (SORI WEIDE!!!) but i was soo damn tired n my batt died oredi... i jus had no mood of aniting n went straight to bed,,,

Ill post another later wif sum pics n the pics to my photobucket tonite... hu ever wans the pics pls dl them kkz.. oh ya th pics of the SCL CLUB activities tt i hav ill try by sun to upload all of them...

Laterz

Upcomin Dinner Meet... N Others...

2007-07-11T11:24:00.000+08:00

I cant wait for the Dinner Meet, now havin break 4 3h n i wunt b eating lunch coz need room for the fd for the Dinner Meet later... Cant wait sia!!! Later tonite ill post wat happen ther...

Sori didnt post ystrdy... was damn tired aftr wrk lah... soo here i am jus gona tell ya tt i didnt stay awake all the way durin my PIC report Rushin Mad... i slpt @ abt 3am then woke up again @ abt 530am to continue...

I tell u we kena SUAY-ED!!! coz my lecturer said he gona check it tt day n lucki didnt hav to hand it up coz everione did most of the reports all wrong... he veri specific type.. thk god lah... haiz soo gotta redo the whole report by my lonesome-self on SUN lor...

ok @ least my partner did some of it but like i still hav to redo it like the whole myself... dun take it as if im complainin kk... jus tryin to state i realli got alot of wrk cut out for me...

Well once a while the need to rush things is quite gd... FOR ME TT IS!!!
Oh ya... i cldn't strt on my Mths Assignment n i told 'her' (my mths lect) tt ill hand it up on fri by no choice bah... she said she'll minus the marks...

well wat to do bah.. late assignments n reports sure kena deduct mrks mah... wat to do wat to do? jus accept lor... @ least it will b marked n i still get my marks n stuff soo its not tt bad a deal... BTW: i passed my mths wif a C... 1st time sia... ahahaha...

Hav to take it as positive of everything as much as possible as its now the time wher the negative emotions n feelings are gonna pour out due to the ever inclining stress from the modules n lecturers n peers as the EXAMS are drawing nearer as i blog tis n gotta rush for time to complete n revise my studies...

Soo todae will b the last day i enjoy myself wif frens to de-stress before the road to ever constant struggle n hardship til aftr the exams strt...

My results... Tasks @ hand

2007-07-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

Finalli got most of my results back, i soo far passed 2 out of my 6 modules which are RS n BPA [failed], AC n PIC got a C, so wats lef? Mths n CostAccounting ba. I tink tis 2 unknowns ones i shld pass de...

I cant afford to fail animore haiz... gotta buck up like crazy, ystrdy cldnt finish my PIC, damn hard, oni cld complete 90% of my draft[on pencil n ppr] for expt2 section, came back hm abt 7pm aftr walkin aimlessly in Yishun aftr sch... needed the fresh evenin air... to clear the mind u noe...

okok i tink ill go n finish tis post, dinner than strt on it ya?
So wat tasks do i hav to complete todae? its quite alot i guess since i totali frgt abt my mths assignment til jus now wen i opened my file n i saw 'IT!!!'

but PIC comes 1st soo like PIC gotta finish it diedie... then gotta do my printout of SemPro, n do the stepping, aftr tt wld b mths assignment... haiz... i dun tink it cld b done by 12mn rite? i mean hey its quite alot of wrk especially for tis PIC, i tink ill strt @ 830pm aftr dinner...

Lets plan it out ya?
830 - PIC expt 2 n others since raviyn doin expt 1
1am - Compile n Edit
2am - Printout Report, n SP graph
330am - Mths Assignment
6am - Get ready for sch

wah i tink if i delay abit here n ther i tink its wunt change much of the timing since i gotta b in sch for 8am classes...
HAIZ!!!

well gotta sacrifice sum slp to get the job done no? Lets Do It YEAH!!!

a nice coolin sunday...[note: long post, stretch frm sat to sun]

2007-07-08T19:24:00.000+08:00

Okay, todae woke up @ abt erm 1030am i tink, then i went to do some surfing. Im suppose to feel more tired than usual todae coz i wrked my butt of ystrday for a total of 12hours @ wrk without a proper break.

I went to the 7-11 @ my place ther n got some energy drink n oso a light snack, wen i reached home i heated the fd n went to my room to munch on it while i go n read some mail...
while readin n munchin, sarah pm my msn 2 ask for the photos tt i took wif them on thu, i redirected her to my photobucket to dl the pics...

ok done wif munchin but not feelin slpy, watched some anime tts i jus finished 'dl', naruto wat else... ok nice but i wished ther was more action in the epi alwayz... finally @ abt 3am, i was able to fall asleep yeah...

oh ya, wen i was abt to leave for wrk on sat, ta-jie msged me... ill post it here then, on second thought, mayb not lah, the conversation jus plain damn too long... n veri difficult for me to type it all out here to refer to my hp's inbox n sent messages ok...
soo lets jus say she cares alot... how touching.. made a promise but i tink i can oni keep 80% of it coz my managers dun let me oni take the sat wrk time, need 2 commit 2 days @ least... haiz soo i took the tue since we end earli n wed is oso quite a short day...

Y not wed? coz im gona b active in the SCL CLUB soo i plan to make use of tt time for the CLUB bah...

NOTE 2 Ta-Jie: THKZ FOR THE SMSES YSTRDAY!!! REALLI MADE THE DAY OKOK MAYB MOST OF E DAY... coz my wrkplace was like hell aftr half the time spent ther... aka evening busy time... enuff abt wrk... givin me stress n stuff... im ok now...

2dae mornin went to ppls' blogs n i stubbled across Wei Suan's post, i agree wif him abt sum of the things he posted on his blog abt our sch n studies... but mayb he abit too much sayin abt the MOE... i dun wan trouble but i do understand tt we need to voice ourselves to a certain lvl...

i guess we all need a break, for me, i wan a enjoyable break to spend on tis comin wed wif my club frenz... to relieve the negative academic thoughts in my head since i failed most of my modules... interestingly i passed my PIC class test wif a C... not bad, i didnt study tt much, jus remembered n paid as much okok not tt much attention to his key points... im better @ theory i guess as long as its not confusing n complex to my standards...

Oh ya watched Princess mononoke n my super ex-girlfren... Princess mononoke was nice, i luv anime no matter wat lah... as long its not sucky can oredi... well for the other tittle, i jus dun get it tt much coz i was pre-occupied wif other matter tts y never did pay attention... okok i oni did get abt luv parts n stuff... but it didnt get my full interests n i rate it as per 'average?'

i may not b much of a movie critic but i luv watchin movies n those tt realli impress n reel me in ar the best... those get high ratings frm me... well diff ppl hav diff tastes n such, tts wat makes us all unique n diff bah... ahahaha... i tink Yamon still remembers abt the philosophy sayin i told her if she didnt frgt ahahaha...

Rite now, im doin my PIC, its damn hard n im havin such a BIG HEADACHE wif it... herm wen am i gona strt on BPA?? well lets jus get it done one by one, later its all a mess i guess...

Bloggin shall b delayed til sun...

2007-07-07T09:11:00.000+08:00

sori peepz abt ystrday nt bloggin aftr sch, was jus plain damn slpy n tired.. Y? coz i was oredi damn slpy n tired wen i reached sch hehez.

Well i was oredi fallin asleep during my Reactor System Lab Briefing sia... btw no lab, jus a briefing n a summary type.... lucky i fell asleep @ the last moments bfr he ended in like wat? 1min... lolz

went home wif gang aftr tt... rented dvds for the day, THE COVENANT, MY SUPER EX-GIRLFRIEND n PRINCESS MONO...something... an anime movie...

reached hm for lunch n watched the covenant, its nice... my sis was in luv wif the male lead, quite handsome leh... ahahaha...
n aftr the movie ended, i totali went zzzZZZzzz... til abt 845am todae... wah tts alot of slpin time than normal for me... im feelin refreshed n tts a gd sign coz ill b wrkin frm 11am til 12mn todae... arnd ther or mayb til 1130pm, depends on how fast we close the kitchen rite? YEAH... OT OT... i luv my OT but too bad aint double pay plus OT...

well im off to watch tv for awhile bfr i gotta go to wrk... cya ppl...

oh ya abt todae n tmr stuff will b blogged tmr nite kkz... busy busy...

SIANZ... ROTTIN IN SCH FOR 2 Hours

2007-07-06T11:00:00.000+08:00

wah i cant believe im rottin in sch again for another 2hours like tuesday bfr the nex lesson sia... actualli its a 3h break but since im attending my SP excel class tts y its now 2h...

i msged my manager tt im not comin for wrk todae oredi liao.. i tink thers jus too much sch wrk to finish up wif alot of reports n oso my revision which i realli gotta buck up like mad (refer to last post to c the argument wif Ta-Jie...)

i oredi feelin sleepy durin last hour for mths, n here i am outside the lab sittin n rottin here... can it actualli become any better? actualli it didnt, its the same lah i guess... wher i am rottin doesnt make much of a diff, i cant slp here nor anywhere else as i totali cant slp although i feelin damn sleepy...

well my mood todae is like 'pls sumone kill me'...
haiz abt the solution to the argument wif ta-jie ystrday i still hav no clue lah... til now tt is... hope it'll pop up soon... i jus cant take animore major headaches...
u wana noe y? its coz... ... ... NO MORE PANADOL!!!! out of stock sia... sobz T_T...

Sad case...

2007-07-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

its a sad case sia... i found out wen i was on my way back frm sch wif simin-jie (ta-jie), jin dan, weide n oso sarah...

ta-jie so-called threatened n somehow scolded me abt my poor academic results...
i cant help it bah... i tried my best n u ppl shld noe me bah, i jus suck @ modules tt hav serious mths calculations, formulas n oso physics...

she said ' haiyo, y ur results soo bad, nvr study meh? wat u doing? wat u gona do abt it?'
i replied ' i do nothing ba, n i nvr do anyting soo im gona do nothing...'

she: 'u dun care abt losing us and all of ur class??!!!'
me: 'wat am i to do abt it? i care lor then wat u wan me b? a total hack-care is it? like tt rather b a lonesome person totali n avoid all contact rite?'

well i do regret veri much abt the argument but i cant do much abt it at the moment.. wat can i do i ask myself til now... but no solution pops into my head lah...

haiz i jus wished everione wld understand my position as well as my feelings n distress abt it...

ive tried to follow my dear ta-jie n gangs' advise abt quitin my job but it seems im in no position to do so even if i tried... its not abt the outlet not lettin me go okok mayb a part of it, they now then allowed but tt time realli cant allow me go since im valued like an asset coz short of staff like mad now like got alot, ill tok abt the new situation at my wrkplace another time lor...

well i jus cant quit, 1. finacial, 2. need to get more pre-occupied to more than jus academic, 3. experience gaining, 4. others n many more...

many asked me wats my status, yet i oni can answer them wif info tt is available to b distributed... coz i jus cant pour all of my personal details like tt meh? its confidential bah...

well i can oni say here tt im the type not to make ppl understand me too much coz i like to b mysterious and oso tt i dun wan them worry too much abt me. i prefer to worry abt others... the feelings wen ppl worry abt myself is kinda weird feeling tt its hard to xplain n it somehow brings pain to my heart n soul wen i noe they're worried...

haiz... i jus prefer to b more mindful of others than myself n i prefer they wld do the same, dun mind abt me too much, i can handle the pain n struggles tt goes on in my life...
i treat it as obstacles tt the almighty god has brought upon me as trials n tests in life...

soo im jus gonna end wif tis phylosophy sayin n oso a few wrds to ta-jie n gang...

how can a life b viewed as magnificent n beautiful? it is wen tt life has gone thru many trials n overcome them, oni then it wld evolve n emerge as a magnificent n beautiful one which overcomes n truimphs over others due to the amount of experience n difficulties it has gone thru...

im sorry to make u ppl wori abt me but i prefer u ppl jus stay ther by my side ok? but dun worri too much abt me... even if more difficulties lie ahead, ill always try my best n struggle thru it even if i were to fall back, ill always pick myself up kkz...

Im realli thkful n appreaciate everiones feelings...

SCL MAKAN outing/gathering

2007-07-05T19:48:00.000+08:00

for those hu ar goin to the makan outing/gathering, pls confirm ur status if ur plannin or confirm oredi to join us...

The place n location n timing is not confirmed coz 'we' are still lookin for the restaurant which hav gd food n affordable prices plus gd service too lah if available...

Yamon asked me to msg u all whom i hav contacts coz we need to noe abt how many ppl ar goin soo we can book the place...

Hope to c most of u all ther coz i luv ur company kkz ppl...

ill b mass msgin u peeps aftrwards in like 2h since im busy wif my reports now kkz..

DAMN TIRED!!! CRISIS @ WRKPLACE!!!

2007-07-04T12:19:00.000+08:00

haiz.. im jus soo damn tired... coz im slowly recoverin from the lag of slp n slpless nitez durin the CT wk n oso overwrkin my body, mind n soul...

im oso damn tired frm juggling everiting frm erm... nvm lets jus say everyting in my life rite now...

how i wish i could stop time for a moment like a few days mayb coz i wana slp n retink abt my plans... hav u peeps noe wat u wana b wen u grow up...? coz even though ur tt old oredi, ur choices are still available leh... im serious coz as long as u hav the drive u can still chng the course tt ur in n make it into the ones tt u hav always wanted...
CAUTION: not everything is made possible... but @ least tried rite...

For me, i noe tt my choices are limited rite now... its either i go into pharmaceutical or petrochem but ive always wanted to go into education... i wana help those studs tt went thru the same treatment as wen i was in sec sch... coz alot of ppl nowadays hav such a general opinion tt it hurts wen i tink abt how those ppl treat these type of studs...

wat type u ask? well its sumting tt u shld sit down n ponder urself abt...
well i tink tts enuff abt my arguments...

Abt my wrkplace arh? well thers 2 china ladies hu ar attached here i tink... well for me n my members workin in the kitchen, its hard to communicate wif them since their eng super duperly suck same as my mandarin however at least i can tok abit rite... but i understand more... haiz... y must wrk inside kitchen?

i wunder wats wrng wif my RM.. she wan all female crew i dun mind... im being the xtra one lah... haiz then y must pick them up haiz... she sotong lah... nex time wan do things do em which benefits the entire outlet lah... she teach em then i dun mind lah... my brain hurts more than normal everytime i hav to teach them coz its super hard to teach them wif tis barrier....

oh ya abt my RM doing sotong things.. she tok damn big abt havin 3 wash aunties but i find it quite useless sia... since they all tend to go back bfr the closing is finalized n done wif... haiz we still gotta do most of the job bah... n they're soo damn slow... i can do much better n damn faster!!!

haiyo... i can do multi taskin while doin wash sia... i can do aux orders then come back n finish up alot of things tt ar in the sink n go back to doin orders... super fast!!! pro rite.. alot of my members can oso do tt... we ar trained by ourselves to do tt... it super effiecient bah if u wana get the job done... actualli i wanted to clear it faster by helpin wif the wash but they said its their job n since they are paid oni to do tt im restricted frm helpin unless they're not ther lor...

HAIZ troubled!!!

SCL MAKAN OUTING!!!

2007-07-03T03:29:00.000+08:00

hey, heard the news about the scl makan outing? its on wed the 11th liao... at an indian cuisine restaurant...

jus make sure ur free on tt day if u wana join in the makan festival...

i heard we're gona celebrate milan's belated bdae on tt day oso.
its in the evening ba... ill msg the ogls the details once i noe more abt it liao...

Y am i still awake? well i am coz of the long sleepin time i had in the morn til evenin... well im still awake n i dun feel slpy one bit soo here i am tellin u peeps as so...

I myself hav noting else to do since my brain jus froze moments ago as i cant do aniting much more on my PIC draft report as im stumped...
so here i am uploadin pics into my photobucket accnt to put on my blog n friendster... found my secret stash frm long ago hiding in one corner of my desktop's folders...

i thought i had many more but nope soo i guess i realli need to take more pics of myself n others... wif me in it bah... of course i cant upload all of them rite... ahahahaha

ill jus slowly upload them kkz...

Todae is a sickly day...

2007-07-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

cant believe i had high-fever todae of all days wen i realli wana go to sch...

cldnt get up todae til soo late like 8pm.. didnt notice my batt died... stayed in bed the entire time slpin n resting.... major headaches n the heat...

woke up at 8pm arnd ther but still layed in bed til 930pm to eat some fever medicine...
my batt still flat... dunoe y i dun feel like chargin it...

y im like tis todae? the oni xplanation is due to slpless nites durin the CT n oso im damn beat out aftr my caterin job... hey add tis together n u get a collapsing me...

well i got to strt doin my PIC draft report soon... mayb somewher aftr midnite... thkz to overslpin im damn wide awake...

mayb not tt wide but jus awake til i cant yet go to slp... aka not slpy...

haiz... my head hurts like mad still... it feels soo damn heavy n also that pumping vessels feeling... realli irritating... makin me hard to tink n concentrate... haiz...

well i hope i can make it thru the nite n slp jus bfr sch strts... haiz... tmr is gona b a hectic day jugglin soo many tings aftr sch n wrk...

Premonition of a hectic wk...

2007-07-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

Tis wk i guess tt i'll b super-duperly hecticly busy liao...
On mon, i hav to do my PIC draft report and oso of doing my Mths' e-quiz tts due by mon i tink...
Then theres SP to do... heard tt the qns for each grp is gona come out on tt day... haiz... troubled indeed...

Gotta buck up since the CT was sucky as usual.... xcept for my CA...
I always tell myself tt i went into the wrong course yet if it is my destiny n fate n i happen to go into it might as well struggle thru it to the end ritE?

haiz...

E oni ting i can do rite now is to strive towards wat i can do... n tts work harder n juggle as much as possible wif all the stuff i hav happenin in my life... like sch, academics, wrk, family n personal life....

i noe its abit too much n sure wld overstress myself but i gotta do it coz in aug ill hav to stop entertainin afew of these stuff however the main priority is tt of academics n sch... soo the rest hav to halt in aug coz tts wen the exams are around the corner n i realli mean around coz by the time u noe it, it'll b like tmr or something scary n horrying to describe the feelings in my head....

I NEED PANADOL XTRA!!!!

okok i noe it helps but not to eat it everyday... lucki i avoid it by eating the regular ones too... later immune to it, then more trouble for me...

lets plan it out ya; 2-9 July
mon - PIC DRAFT REPORT, MTHS E-QUIZ
tue - WRK, SP, PIC REPORT
wed - WRK, PIC REPORT, CA, BPA
thu - LAB REPORTS, AC, PIC & REPORT
fri - WRK, LAB REPORTS, PIC REPORT
sat - WRK, LAB REPORTS, PIC REPORT, TUTORIALS, REVISION
sun - ANDALUS, REPORTS, TUTORIALS, REVISION
mon - PIC REPORT, SP

well hope i can keep to the plan...

Exams are over yet the battle aint over...

2007-07-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

Like my previous post, exams tis sem is hard n im thankful tt its over, however the battle tts jus over is jus put a small skirmish...

the real battle has yet to begun n over wif... coz the Semestral Exams are nearing at great speeds...
I feel that im in for a struggle n i aint gona like it one bit...

for the time being tis comin wk, i jus wana take my time to recover frm the lost of slp n the continuous headaches that i feel rite nw..
gotta complete report for PIC tis comin mon for the draft n ask abt it on tue, n tue mornin gona strt on mths' new topic, intergration which i dun understand one bit... haiz...

well soo many troubles in sch yet so is at wrk... i gotta go back to wrk to sustain me on the mth of Aug tt i aint gona wrk til the exams ar over... okok mayb wrk on sat oni but i tink tts all tt im gona b wrkin on...

many worries n many doubts... my brains a mess n here im slowy fixin them all out...

CA n RS Over liao... Lef BPA [my resolve at the moment]

2007-06-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

CA i tink i manage to score an A hopefully but if i do get a B i feel contented. RS was difficult as always to me... i noe which modules im weak at... i try my best no matter wat to try n absorb, understand n remember as much of each module i can...where possible... ill struggle wif it to the end...

as i am rite now, i feel as if i hav totali lost the will of my academic life... yet i hav the feelings to continue doing the best of my abilities and persue as much as i can towards my studies...

i hav oredi known my limits of certain criterias n areas yet i still feel like i should strive to improve it, no?

even though i may hav lost the will, the need for it still lives...
mayb i can rekindle the drive once again...
im not the type to let negative things affect me... mayb they do realli hav a great impact towards myself n my life but however, im the guy hu always at the end of the day keeps lookin forward to the future happy days tt i wish for...

A typical hack-care, care-free, happy-go-lucky, positive guy... not forgettin b happy n smile alwayz...

am i jus too optimistic? it is said tt my personality is as so n the weakness is being too n over optimistic...
it mayb considered a weakness however, i feel tt it is a blessing as im like tis because i am myself n oni myself for tt im thankful for it as i can keep being myself no matter the outcome that is thrown to me...

okok mayb ill b down n gloomy once a while... i too hav mood swings...
my mood swings like a wave yet my results are as stagnant as the x-axis... hehez

its jus something i crapped out quite sometime ago... its kinda true however i hope not... coz i dun wana sit still like the water, a river wld b gd as it has a tide, waves n many more...

my fren read tt im a yin-earth yet i aspire to b tt of water... we will tok abt it aftr my last ppr kkz? goin to study again then slp n wake up to study again...

Maths Ppr over, lef 3 more to go...

2007-06-26T19:11:00.001+08:00

Ystrday was mths ppr... It was ok i guess...hopefully can get a nice C wld b gd enuff for the time being...

So im lef wif Cost Accounting which is tmr, Reactor System, my so-called worst before mths on thu mornin and BioProcess Application on fri.

Its not over yet aftr the exams... Aftrwards i gotta strt on my PIC report which is due in 2 wks time if im not mistaken. Haiz... the stress n pressure but i still gotto do it ya....

So tonite gotta study for both RS n CA.... but will strt on CA 1st since its tmr ba then RS... y? coz RS is hard for me soo gotta strt earlier n CA is my elective.. can say its quite on a norm lvl kkz...

Gettin started all over again...

2007-06-25T00:52:00.000+08:00

here i am ppl again... gettin strted all over again as i totali need to forget the present n the past yet look towards the many ups n more downs of my life from tis point onwards...

hope to make a turnin point in my life... soo many things happenin at once in my life tis time around tt it hurts n i jus feel like im gona break down anytime soon... mayb anytime like any sec or min yet i duno wen...

unfortunately i oredi broke down once durin my june study break...

Soo here i am again n shall try my best to comply to my blog as a startup to my new way of life...